woohoo back from txy camp :D it was awesome! overall it was better than i expected. the people i knew were nice, and though some parts were rather -_____-, i'm sure the ICs spent a lot of hard work planning, so thank you! big thank you to gongwei, syd, dancers, logistics, food ICs etc! :) most imptly THANK YOU GRP LEADERS :) really hope my group members can still keep in touch, though we won't be seeing much of each other. hopefully still can work tgt for 会讯s. yeah quite impossible :( dunno why i'm ranting on since nobody from icamp's gonna read this lol. really hope i can go around taking pics during next year's camp :)

slept 12hours last night from 10pm when i wanted to sleep in the aftnoon. and grr now i'm sick and had to miss combined lg. wthwthwthwth baking sounds uber fun :(
been sneezing like mad since when i woke up, and thought i was having a throat infection. but lucky i can talk now :D surprisingly aft i just took flu med, i'm feeling so energetic now! woohoo!

gahh life's so hectic now! but i'm loving it! bef i know it, it's gonna be christmas! :D i think God has been speaking to me! really appreciate these moments in life.

read this comic book my sis borrowed fm her friend, and i'm in awe. i'm not really into comics actually but this time the illustrations really got to me. they're pleasing to the eye, cute but sad at the same time. pastel colours ftw! i thought the author was a female cos it had several emo insights about love. i thought only girls would harp so much on these issues.


but what's more rare are the insights about diff issues in life. some common, but others more distant for me - friendship's fragility, the mass media's superficiality, war etc. it really got me thinking. and of course since i identified w some things he mentioned, it was more deeply etched in my mind.



btw it's called blue cookies, part 3 from the MY WAY series. author: 寂地。hope i can get my hands on all 3 books :D


smth from Bible Verse of the Day:
God uses ordinary people to glorify His name.

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"And you, my child, will be called a prophet of the Most High; for you will go on before the Lord to prepare the way for him, to give his people the knowledge of salvation through the forgiveness of their sins" – Luke 1:76-77

Zechariah was speaking to his newly born son who would become John the Baptist. Notice what he prophetically speaks to John and ultimately to us: We come to the knowledge of salvation when we understand our sin and the need for forgiveness. We can talk of Jesus being our Savior, but do we realize that means we are not able to change ourselves and need to be rescued? The good news becomes good when we truly realize the state of our souls before God. The birth of John the Baptist reminds us that we are more flawed than we want to admit, but more loved than we could dream. This exposes our fallen nature while embracing the love of God. This empowers us with salvation.

this spoke to me. i have this really bad habit of running away from what i perceive as difficult, and taking things too seriously. i'm not confident. should stop giving excuses for myself! i'm such a 懦夫 omg. think i really need to do truckloads of reflection. everytime i start thinking, negative thoughts keep filling up my mind. still, i'm determined to reflect and spend more time w You. how long will it take for me to break out of this trap i created for myself? soon, i hope. i hope these scars will soon be healed by You. and i know there's a reason for the things You present to me in my life.

i don't even know i'm over/underestimating myself. maybe it's cos i don't have expectations of myself. i hate expectations. i hate disappointment. i'm new and inexperienced, still growing. i think i'm expected to outreach to ppl. and when i can't even express my feelings to people close to me, it really sucks. barriers keep forming. the closest people don't know me sometimes. i don't know them too. and for the people who don't, the superficiality, it just gets to me.

last week's service really got me bawling. i dunno for what reason, but i've been breaking down too often lately. need to really get more fresh bread from God :)
self reminder! rmb this verse from hillsong:
We are living to make
Your Name high Jesus
Living to make Your Name high Jesus
You gave what the world couldn’t offer us
Say what they want
Say what they want
We are free

Labels: camp, God, reflection

Labels: camp, outing, photo series