lack of food has its way of getting to me. i feel like i just fasted. hmm. time to do some self-reflection, since nothing. is. going. into. my brain. (i hope it kicks start again soon) and I SHOULD STOP WASTING TIME.

haha but yeah shall post smth heart-felt, i wanna blog about it before i forget. this marks some kinda milestone/impt stage in my life okay!
here goes..

have really changed a lot these 4 years. i think it was the most drastic change that ever happened to me.
i've become much, much more reserved.
sometimes it feels torturous, as if smth's tearing out at you and you wanna just let yourself loose with no reservations. but i controlled myself. controlled my emotions.

i guess it's refreshing in some kinda way :)
haha those who knew me from my sec3 days, i'm really sorry :P
used to be this freaking annoying person who talked without thinking; hurt others without knowing and laughed without any reservations whatsoever.
hate the arrogant self i was 2 years ago. omg how i abhor myself.

hee but haveta admit those 2 years were the best of my life. NOT cos of my hurting others okay! (rest assured) but cos i got to know some of the most amazing people ever. :) though we've drifted apart, those were some of the most memorable times of my life ^^ they'll be with me forever.

and though i now have fewer friends to hang arnd with, those who stuck by me are the people who really care. they do not judge by my flaws. they stick by me in times of thick or thin. though they do have their flaws, i'm so much more flawed than them and i still love them really very much. :) thank you, all you lovely people!

to those who're running this final lap! please do hang in there and take care of your health, drink loadsa water (cliche advice yeah i know) and eat fruits, study hard! YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
LET'S PLAY HARD AFT WE SURVIVE THESE TUMULTUOUS TIMES! :)
doubt anyone's reading, but just in case! fate has a way of working things out at the right time.

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