You’re the bright and morning Sun

2012-01-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

You really catch me off-guard at moments like this. thank You so much. :D even when the world falls apart, i know i have You.

the picture's kinda starting to unravel. slowly. hopefully.

on the way to maturity. slowly but surely. even if it means denying the old me. studying overseas is a surefire way of growing. and i'm beginning to see how Your plan for me goes, though i don't think i'll ever know, until the ending arrives.

like what someone once said, sometimes i've just gotta stop questioning, and just do it by faith. radical.

i dunno if my dreams will turn into reality. but i've got You to help me and that's all that matters, no? :)

2011-08-01T00:28:00.001+08:00

hope conference was such a blast. exceeded all expectations. miracles seen, hearts broken and healed.

there's still a long way to go. but dwelling in Him and gonna listen to the Holy Spirit's voice blast in me such that i'll not let opportunities come to pass. my heart bleeds for those who do not know of Jesus' love for them yet. won by one, one by one.

day 1 (in non-chrono order):

"challenge yourself to be challenged." thank You for this sister.

God gave me a vision that is close to my heart. He showed me a blade cutting through cloth binded by unwanted threads. the blade represents courage which i'll rcv with faith and His power. the threads rep the traps that the devil sets. cloth - heart. the end product, untainted and unmangled cloth, can then be used for so many purposes. "spread love."

confirmed my path to take communications. need to pray about this some more. translation. for publications like The Daily Bread. write songs for Jesus. (no idea how i'm gonna do that)

be the salt in my family. sow on my grandma, mum and bring them to Mandarin service.

prayed for my family. "at this moment, something is changing and stirring in their hearts."

prayed for the prison and walls of inferiority around me to disintegrate.

don't let the devil diminish you. don't let others tell you who you are.

King of courage and strength. fall back upon Him. proud to be a child of God.

Rev Mark's story about red hair - still on fire for Jesus. see the good things.

we do not set out to be an inspiration. that's not an end in itself. - refer to notes.

day 2:

kairos - pouring our hearts out. bleeding for those who are lost in this world. they are loved yet they don't even know.

prayed for to have an inkling of what to do in China. perhaps start a uni LG. 1.3bn people, i wna make an impact.

forgive. we hold grudges w some ppl and we tend to forget over time, but our hurt is reminded when we see them again. forgive cos we are forgiven at the cross, when Jesus took upon all our sins.

teachings by Reverend Mark shed light to Christian life and answered my doubts about what is considered a luxury / necessity. have hobbies to refresh ourselves! rhythm and pace. like a series of heartbeats.

marathon. not how fast you go, but how long you last.

told God to keep me accountable, in terms of reducing not-so-spiritual things.

second vision i had: prisoners with hands tied, walking towards a door, led by a few ppl beside them. but when they exited through the door, they transformed into birds, and flew into the sky, seeking freedom.

pls not let this be just a fleeting passion. let it be deeply rooted in my heart, and produce seeds which will be fruitful.

2011-07-17T00:39:00.001+08:00

thank You for speaking to me, through the leaders (pastor, worship and unit) and song lyrics. about Your call, mission trips, life overseas, and bringing my family to Christ. it's times like this that i feel really blessed. i know it's not a mere coincidence. :) could really feel the Holy Spirit upon us during service today.

there're so many things my heart breaks for, and my fists clench for. the victims of lack of information, and horrendous misconceptions which bring harm upon people. victims of abuse. victims of slavery. yet i know i have to be fully equipped bef i can actually go and venture out. so yes, i'll be patient and grow to be deeply rooted in His word, and wait for the correct moment to strike and go all out. time is of the essence, yet His plans are above all else.

in the meantime, i'll do everything in love. more people, more like Jesus.

few things to remember:
1. read the useful notes from sheppy :)
2. pray about chairs for soul
3. pray about NYC camp
4. mission trip
5. constant regular QT

2011-06-15T18:33:00.000+08:00

i'm tired of struggling with myself. escaping into fiction.
i know better than to waste my life away like this, especially since it's the last few months i can spend w my family and friends.
but i'm just so let down by humanity. fallible beings.
all this feels like a fabricated lie.
my faith seems to be drowning.

unknown phobias, lurking dangerously around the corner, illuminated by our consciousness.
masks which we create and delicately add layer by layer so no one can possibly peer beneath - the grotesque closeness.
hands entangled in massive obsessive webs; so busy being involved to notice they have been entrapped, deeper and deeper until there's no turning back, until a self-fulfilling prison is built brick by brick.
i hate that i'm succumbing to all this (or will, in no time). i hate the practicality of all this. but this is life, just not the life i want.

i will fight you. no matter how unsure i am of myself, i will. step by step, He'll guide me.

our hearts come alive with Your glory

2011-05-01T12:02:00.003+08:00

last youth service at nexus ytd. can't bear to leave. this place was when i first knew Christ, sitting in one of the green chairs on the left near the stage. then, one year later, in one of the green chairs on the right, i rcved Christ and the Holy Spirit. that was when i first experienced His mercy & grace :')

since then, i've been looking fwd to sats when i can praise & worship God! it's an amazing feeling to be able to converse w God and listen to His advice and thank Him tgt with a whole big group of ppl, compared to just praying at home/work. most memorable session was praise&worship during metamorphosis, when we just poured out all our troubles, and came tgt to pray for consec 3 hours. two is better than one in prayer. "I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them." - Matthew 18:19-20

also, the atmosphere's so amped up during youth service. and the sermons, they're just so applicable and i'm able to relate to them so well. awesome pastors who preach from the Word yet make it relevant to our daily lives. awesome online sermon resources for when we miss out services. i feel just so privileged to be in this church and serving w a group of awesome lg mates. it's a blessing i won't take for granted. :)

guess i still feel like a kid. i know i'm gonna have to get used to the more serious atmosphere in uni service. :( e.g. no jumping and fewer/softer amens? but i have to really be more mature and stop seeing myself as a kid. in the meantime, recalled what yangs told me about God caring for His children who have innocence. guess i have to strike a balance btn maturing and still maintaining a child-like worldview, cos it's in a child's eyes that more things are discovered and renewed. stop being so jaded, there're things to be thankful for every day :)

what xiangyu said ytd really jolted me. don't insult God by settling for smth small. God did not create you and plant His word in you and give you the Great Commission just so you can be satisfied with your current situation. He wants you to get out of your comfort zone, break barriers, dream big, and do radical things. (Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. - Matthew 28:19-20) make disciples, by contributing/serving through smth you are good in, no matter how small you think it is. when you're belittling yourself, you're belittling your Father's power for He gave you talents and much more.

really thankful for Jol who prayed for me. she really inspired me to improve my prayer life. take care girl!! thank God for our bros&sis for winning the car challenge and donating all proceeds to the CBF :D the number of chairs will be doubled!

somehow there doesn't seem to be enough time/energy to get to know each and every brother and sister. :( esp now w work. argh. i wna do serious fellowshipping soon. and serving w them. also, i wna catch up w my friends too.

goal for my role in lg:
to serve in at least one comm service, helping to plan bef hand
improve my prayer and be more spirit-led
plan my time such that i can spend more time w lg, not compromising family time (though i'm a srsly disorganised person boo)
flea mkt shopping w them! hahaha.

mission trip!!

and little things which were incomprehensible just finally all make sense now. :D all the missing pieces finally gathered into a complete picture.

Beautiful God
Laying Your majesty aside
You reached out in love to show me life
Lifted from darkness into light

King for a slave
Trading Your righteousness for shame
Despite all my pride and foolish ways
Caught in Your infinite embrace

And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche

Your word is the lamp unto my path
Forever I'm humbled by Your love

With all that I am I will love You

from now on i'll be posting sermon/lg teaching points, since my handwriting's getting real bad and sermon notebook's screwed up.

Outside My Own Little World - Matthew West

2011-03-31T12:43:00.001+08:00

What if there’s a bigger picture
What if I’m missing out
What if there’s a greater purpose
That I could be living right now
I don’t wanna miss what matters
I wanna be reaching out
Show me the greater purpose
So I can start living right now
Outside my own little world

Father break my heart for what breaks Yours
Give me open hands and open doors
Put Your light in my eyes and let me see
That my own little world is not about me

i've been so caught up in my own little world that it feels that i'm not living for anyth. what's my greater purpose? i alr know so why ain't i pursuing it? hopefully, the one month aft my internship will be dedicated to volunteer work. and hopefully You will lead me to what i was put on earth for. cos these b&w achievements don't matter.

2011-03-24T19:42:00.002+08:00

xiuli says:
monash? another priv uni isit
turkey says:
aussie uni la
xiuli says:
=.=
oh cheh
no wonder i found it so familiar
turkey says:
-_-
ducks don't come from aussie man
why'd you find it familiar
xiuli says:
LOL WTH?!?
my ancestors waddled across aussie before
hence..
there's this traditional story about Donald The Duck Hero
and how he waddled his way across
aussie
to reach Singapore
that had been handed down
for generations and generations
xD
turkey says:
WTHSHIT
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
i feel like posting it on your wall
-_-
xiuli says:
it's a ducky folk tail xD
turkey says:
tale
ZOMG.
xiuli says:
TAIL
turkey says:
pun much
xiuli says:
DUCK TAIL
LOL
turkey says:
*faints*

2011-03-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

realised i'm not really worth anything. all the walls just keep building up around me. i can't breathe. and i can't seem to find a way to break them down. there must be more to life, right?

what are accomplishments when i can't really do what i want? i yearn to go on mission trips, to volunteer at VWOs. i'll find the means to do it, no matter what.

lost.

2011-03-13T12:34:00.002+08:00

need more strength than ever to break out of my comfort zone. day 1&2 of yingxin were really cui, but day 3 i tried my best no regrets. still i need God to push push push me! and i believe there's more in store.

have a sudden yearning to love flawed people again, it's so overwhelming. what's going on? having a love-hate relationship w this world right now.

i'm really thankful for all the caring peeps, for i really don't deserve their love. really want and need to go on a mission trip soon. really wanna serve and contribute. what's the point if you're living a self-indulgent life and can't make a positive impact on others? what's done for yourself won't ever last but what's done for others will leave a more lasting impact than you've ever imagined.

oh and i really need to rest. too lazy to apply for uni now. still quite lost, though at least i've a sketchy idea of what courses to take. but still not cfmed about the path i'll be taking in the future. have this hunch to take socio in nus though. not sure why.

There's always a better way
there's always a bridge that needs crossings
there's always the straight and the narrow
the wide and the shallow
But I know that you're guiding me
and the best is yet to come

--Building 429, Glory Defined

2011-03-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

thank You for all the blessings you've put in my life. i really really cheongmal appecriate them. :) i hope to have more capacity to open up and love freely, and that this won't just be a fleeting feeling. i also pray for more courage and direction to pursue the things You want me to do, and Your will to be done. i really don't wna confuse passion and calling and monetary benefits.

wow photography is such an expensive hobby! i feel like putting it down for the moment. aft all, no matter how i convince myself, photog capabilities are still limited by the type of camera you have. heh but it'll always remain a passion :) plus i'll take eons just to explore around and decide the correct camera to get. sigh.

need some time to cool down and talk about uni choices.

2011-03-02T20:25:00.001+08:00

whew. it's been such a blast, so many events that i didn't have the energy to blog.

(bintan, perf w ahma, lunch w xl, mlg, movies & daiso trips w zt)

saw a blind man donating to a busker at an mrt station. touching ttm, he's such a gem.

in an abyss right now. i should stop being such an emotional wreck. just so flawed in so many ways.

tell me what is right and what is wrong? howta strike a balance btn being the good/bad guy? much as i was angry, i should've told them the rationale for scolding them. :( in the end i came up w my own formula but i didn't have a chance to put it to use. should i stop seeing them as kids? should i treat them w more dignity?

dunno why i'm so jaded. whatever happened to my promise of unconditional love? now, i'll love till my heart turns dry. so tiring but i'm gonna do it.

this song i'm looping just breaks and heals me again like You. this is uber rare of songs.

2011-02-01T19:35:00.000+08:00

2nd day of work and realised the stuff i learnt at training is peanuts compared to the experience of classroom behaviour. wait till i actually get to teach. sounds scary! since i've signed the Official Secrets Act, i shan't blog about my experience here. :D

the trainer was super experienced (eng-educated) and i'd love to have his portfolio! worked in all areas of the ministry. he's super funny too. gotta mail him to thank him! feel really blessed to have lunch taken care of. really thoughtful! they must've spent a bomb on us lah T_T

just getting used to students' hyper-activeness. CNY celeb tmr! bummed that i can't go back to sch to collect angbaos!! (kidding! just wna look for tchers to thank them) :(

AND I'M MISSING OUT ON MLG :( woke up from a 3hour nap feeling woozy, stomach's not obeying, and what's w the runny nose? must be cos i bathed at 530am. :(((

When we love God with all of our heart, soul and mind, we declare that we have no other gods or idols in our life. (no more fangirling! i didn't even buy the copy of teens with GTOP on the cover -_-) God alone is worthy of our worship, admiration and affection. Everything and everyone else pales in comparison to this great and loving God!

And because this loving God loves me, I overflow with love and generosity toward others. I do not spend my days wishing for that which others have. I am satisfied. I can love with God’s love.

Loving others as we have been loved includes declaring praises for all that God has done, through Christ, on our behalf. - Caesar Kalinowski

Your cross has placed in me my worth

2011-01-27T01:13:00.000+08:00

alright really gotta get my energy level higher! beginning to get apathetic and it's not good. either that or i'll be on the verge of being overly-emotional. why so bipolar? :(

quoted from eileen, the journey to lg was an adventure! i felt like i was on amazing race haha. just so amazing how my phone got cut off aft i got directions, if not i'll really have to cab over to lg today! God You were damn right man, really tested me and my sense of direction! somehow i felt really safe. was still complaining to Dad about how i'm so direction noob that i'll prob not survive even w a compass. well You proved me wrong today :D

hehe lg just got me so thankful and apologetic. thank you everyone! and sean too for lending us his place.

really love huiyi for giving me The Purpose-Driven Life. just started on tues and ytd was the 2nd story - totally drove me to tears.

Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. – Hebrews 10:19-22
we’re not praying to get God’s attention; we pray because we already HAVE God’s attention. The only barrier now is our unbelief! Let God sprinkle your heart today with the mercy that He has already displayed in Jesus Christ. Let God fill you with confidence. - Dave Whitehead

love how He really speaks to me through the stuff i read. :)

gotta keep all unworldly desires outta my mind. feeling like a zombie now so i'll end here. :( shall update on TAP training tmr to keep a record.

2011-01-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

needa put aside all distractions and work on what's impt. gogogrow!

woohoo more hectic days ahead of me, gotta chiong hahaha :D gonna be exciting and reaaaally unpredictable.

guitar lesson today, lol ended up slacking more than practising. wow i've really got a love hate relationship w guitars now :(

I will live a child in awe of You

2011-01-23T12:19:00.002+08:00

worship was so great w all the angelic voices.. God showed me smth awesome but dno how it's gonna work out yet :) but i'm really sure He's working on me! sermon was damn unique 'live' vid footage of pastor jeff at first service! that guy's so awesome and funny, if only he could see our reactions to the vid. that'd be so epic.

back from lunch at jack's place w huiyi :) woohoo set lunch was great! finally felt satisfied and filled aft so long. and of course since i had great company as well :D argh i keep forgetting to buy junk food to store up at home lol.

i wna meet up w lilytay so i can see her curls! :D that busy girl, tsktsk. dunno why so shy ahhh? :D

God, thank You for the timely reminders.

The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. – 1 Corinthians 12:12

For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God. – 1 Peter 1:23
One of the attributes of God’s word is that it is imperishable, that is, it cannot be destroyed. People may criticize the Scripture. They may react violently to what is written in the Bible. But they can’t get rid of it. Even if people turn away from the ways of God, the seed of God’s truth in their heart can’t be uprooted. For those who have family or friends who have heard the Scripture but have walked away, take courage. The very nature of God’s word is embedded in their soul as a reminder (and an oasis) of His faithfulness.
- Dave Whitehead

i don't wna say goodnight

2011-01-20T21:42:00.001+08:00

i guess i got it wrong. it's not the few questions that'll determine my fate, but You. You see it all coming, and everything is according to Your plans. please allow me to follow Your will, and nothing else. cos i wanna know Your heartbeat and walk closer to You with every step i take :)

feel much btr typing it down, dunno why. oops was supposed to pray the above :X

hehe i think God's constantly testing me so soon alr this year, it's just so epic. needa be more disciplined! and lead a prayerful life, keeping all distractions out of my mind. it's gonna be a blast!

okay a short update:

service was greaaaaaaat i wish it would last longer esp worship. whole world, whole city. thank goodness i brought my notepad.

had sunday shopping w kokkiri ~~lilypig~~ sushi and mozzie :D we finally met aft a massive operation of phone calls, msn convos and fb comments. had so much fun since ~~we haven't went shopping tgt bef (omg i can't believe it)~~we were being such a joke. thanks sushi for staying slightly later! bought a white jacket which is really functional.

lg was on wed. thanks jolyn for the pizzas and indo food! :D super inspired to learn guitar. but ow will hate calluses :(

jiayou w work/interviews/applications everyone!

2011-01-19T13:10:00.004+08:00

i'm about to break apart. but God i know You're keeping me sane and alive. love You very much.

to everyone i care about: i promise to do my best for you and not to be the missing link. you have no idea how much i care about each of you and how much i want you to know God's love such that you won't feel void and empty ever again. i'm gonna pray for you all every day. love you gals & guys!

Every heartbeat for Your glory

2011-01-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

just a short update!

i'm a horrible sinner but my heart was renewed once again today! praying tgt feels awesome. it's not the song; it's the message behind it. also got a lot of inspiration today.

words keep coming out wrongly, but i need to overcome that.

rawr i wna know the songs used for worship during service 2 weeks back! and for today's combined service.

reminder: live according to Ephesians 5:1-20.
¹ Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children ² and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

How can I keep from singing Your praise?

2011-01-13T16:42:00.000+08:00

joel's farewell was awesome! games were v well-planned since only had two days or so to plan/prepare! thank you everyone! as usual affirmation/praying was the best part next to cooking! :) ohhhh and i'm super impressed w the food hahaha! esp mashed potatoes :) zixuan and kellie's mad mashing skills, joel's zai chopping skills, glad's uber minced garlic, and jolyn's baked eggs!

caught up w zt today in sch aft collecting testimonial :D but didn't take pics omg :( ate club sandwich too, was awesome. gosh she'd better be immune to my cough, else i'll be the culprit :(

whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. gahh. i caught a flu, fever and throat infection! it's been almost a week and i'm on the way to recovery now but the feeling just sucks. feeling waaaaay pessimistic now, aft all i've missed service and lg in a row.

i can't even enter an air-con room, else my throat gets all uncomfortable and i'll start tearing. wonder what the heck's wrong. self-medicated but might be going to the doc's later cos i ran out of med :(

so it's been tv, comp, sleep, reading the Bible/daily bread, popping med, trying to laugh w/o hurting my throat, suppressing my voice etc. nothing interesting. i keep getting emotional for no apparent reason these days. mad case of moodswings. okay really needa learn to grow grow grow spiritually and stop being so selfish and jealous and lazy and holding everyth back. :( this week i discovered a lot of my flaws and realised i'm damn unsatisfactory. haven't made God smile today, nor this whole week. :( need to stop sinning.

on a sidenote, found shows worth watching. i'm having an obsession w cooking shows/competitions these days. haha. Happy Lunchbox and Yes Chef. :D shall watch the rest online if i'm still sick tmr.

2011-01-02T13:11:00.001+08:00

woohoo these few days have been really hectic but fulfilling.

finally got to meet up w the girls on 30th!! :D mind cafe was cool but i think i overspent, spaghetti wasn't good but lasagne was awesome! had a ball of a time w lame games and cluedo :) and coming up w unique names for nicballoontan.

year-end service was uber awesome and inspiring. i had my spirit renewed, instead of feeling really convicted and guilty like the usual times. of course i still felt i could be pushed to do better for Him, but it was less of guilt and more of strength coming from Him. also, thank God for the inspiring stories our leaders told us. thank God for my brothers who prayed for me. that was really touching. thank God for bringing liying to church for the third time. thank God for the heart-warming affirmations for yilin.

just wna rmb the stories which inspired me:

1. the story about the baton. bef taking the baton and passing it on, we often feel weak, inadequate and inferior, as if we're not fit to pass it on. but doubting in our strength is doubting in His even more, for God gives us all we need and makes us sufficient to do what is right in His eyes. (okay this part i was feeling so damn cui3 alr so can't recall the exact story)

2. the rocks story. in this life, we constantly chase things like pride, reputation, money, and career which in the end, do not matter much as they do not last for eternity. when we look back, they are mere rocks which are weighing us down. learn to see what really matters. (link to devotions: only what is done for His kingdom will last)

3. letter story. before christmas, bridgette wrote a letter blessing a random stranger on the train. months later, the stranger's eldest daughter from malaysia became her friend and came to church. we do not realise what simple acts can do, but God has things all figured out and makes the unexpected happen.

4. raphael's story. was really touching. :'(

sermon by raphael was damn good, my favourite so far! :) then dinner & yilin's celeb, and games @ istana park. omg saboteur really got us hyped up and we didn't get to play other games.

countdown was awesome! managed to reach home bef that. screamed for minutes. this year's fireworks were beautiful. seriously downright beautiful. :D korean golden disc awards till 2am and i fell asleep.

popiah at ahma's ytd! :D finally got to meet her aft so long. :')

btw the free promo stuff on mioTV is awesome. watched glee mvs and i really like their rendition of teenage dream! :D gave me goosebumps. i also love mercedes' worship song! it moved me to tears. also watched Still, Marry Me ep 1 and it looks good :D

shopping w loved ones, helping sean move house maybe, lunch w jolyn, photog/piggy date w denise, and time to get stressed out about my resumes and interviews? sigh. and i'm waiting for zt to return from bintan/sunway lagoon. :)

fasting from online games for the moment. fb pls don't tempt me. :)

Bible Verse of the Day:
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! – 2 Corinthians 5:17

When a new year rolls around we often feel regret for the past or great hope for the future…or both! But what hope do we have of really having a “new year” if we are the same ol’ people? This passage tells us that when someone has dedicated their life to following Jesus, they are re-made. Not just rehabilitated or reformed, but re-created-a new person. We’re not talking about a new way of doing or not doing things, or a different way of behaving, but in Christ we are now new creations. However, we must yield to the perfecting work of the Holy Spirit to experience this new creation work in our lives. This new life is not something that WE muster up. It is the gift of God given and kept by the Spirit. Today, this year and forever.

Jesus is the reason for the season

2010-12-23T16:16:00.003+08:00

woohoo back from txy camp :D it was awesome! overall it was better than i expected. the people i knew were nice, and though some parts were rather -_____-, i'm sure the ICs spent a lot of hard work planning, so thank you! big thank you to gongwei, syd, dancers, logistics, food ICs etc! :) most imptly THANK YOU GRP LEADERS :) really hope my group members can still keep in touch, though we won't be seeing much of each other. hopefully still can work tgt for 会讯s. yeah quite impossible :( dunno why i'm ranting on since nobody from icamp's gonna read this lol. really hope i can go around taking pics during next year's camp :)

slept 12hours last night from 10pm when i wanted to sleep in the aftnoon. and grr now i'm sick and had to miss combined lg. wthwthwthwth baking sounds uber fun :(
been sneezing like mad since when i woke up, and thought i was having a throat infection. but lucky i can talk now :D surprisingly aft i just took flu med, i'm feeling so energetic now! woohoo!

gahh life's so hectic now! but i'm loving it! bef i know it, it's gonna be christmas! :D i think God has been speaking to me! really appreciate these moments in life.

read this comic book my sis borrowed fm her friend, and i'm in awe. i'm not really into comics actually but this time the illustrations really got to me. they're pleasing to the eye, cute but sad at the same time. pastel colours ftw! i thought the author was a female cos it had several emo insights about love. i thought only girls would harp so much on these issues.

but what's more rare are the insights about diff issues in life. some common, but others more distant for me - friendship's fragility, the mass media's superficiality, war etc. it really got me thinking. and of course since i identified w some things he mentioned, it was more deeply etched in my mind.

btw it's called blue cookies, part 3 from the MY WAY series. author: 寂地。hope i can get my hands on all 3 books :D

smth from Bible Verse of the Day:
God uses ordinary people to glorify His name.

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"And you, my child, will be called a prophet of the Most High; for you will go on before the Lord to prepare the way for him, to give his people the knowledge of salvation through the forgiveness of their sins" – Luke 1:76-77

Zechariah was speaking to his newly born son who would become John the Baptist. Notice what he prophetically speaks to John and ultimately to us: We come to the knowledge of salvation when we understand our sin and the need for forgiveness. We can talk of Jesus being our Savior, but do we realize that means we are not able to change ourselves and need to be rescued? The good news becomes good when we truly realize the state of our souls before God. The birth of John the Baptist reminds us that we are more flawed than we want to admit, but more loved than we could dream. This exposes our fallen nature while embracing the love of God. This empowers us with salvation.

this spoke to me. i have this really bad habit of running away from what i perceive as difficult, and taking things too seriously. i'm not confident. should stop giving excuses for myself! i'm such a 懦夫 omg. think i really need to do truckloads of reflection. everytime i start thinking, negative thoughts keep filling up my mind. still, i'm determined to reflect and spend more time w You. how long will it take for me to break out of this trap i created for myself? soon, i hope. i hope these scars will soon be healed by You. and i know there's a reason for the things You present to me in my life.

i don't even know i'm over/underestimating myself. maybe it's cos i don't have expectations of myself. i hate expectations. i hate disappointment. i'm new and inexperienced, still growing. i think i'm expected to outreach to ppl. and when i can't even express my feelings to people close to me, it really sucks. barriers keep forming. the closest people don't know me sometimes. i don't know them too. and for the people who don't, the superficiality, it just gets to me.

last week's service really got me bawling. i dunno for what reason, but i've been breaking down too often lately. need to really get more fresh bread from God :)
self reminder! rmb this verse from hillsong:
We are living to make
Your Name high Jesus
Living to make Your Name high Jesus
You gave what the world couldn’t offer us
Say what they want
Say what they want
We are free

2010-12-17T19:11:00.000+08:00

He takes the high places of our pride and brings them down. He takes the low places of our self-pity and brings them up. Neither is the road our king will travel on. When the glory of the Lord is revealed He transforms our fallen nature so dramatically that those around us see the fruit of that miracle. This is the promise of the coming King.

-daily Bible verse

thank You for the good food and awesome moments and showing me how great Your creations are in nature. :)

i'm feeling weird with the nature photospam on fb when everyone's spamming prom photos. haha.

needa pack for camp.

2010-12-15T16:50:00.000+08:00

God You are just damn amazing can! :D I am in awe! everyth just seemed to fit so perfectly today. really can't live without my family. *tears* though in the middle there was a lot of flurry and vexed emotions, i think i'm alright now! now there's nothing else to be done except to wait for Your plans. thank you too, my loves! :D

here comes.. outing&buffet (hopefully!), packing for txycamp and christmas service 1&2&3!

miraculously i'm well now! when i was still feeling like _ ytd. sigh. You are really good to me, thank You. :)

2010-12-14T17:02:00.007+08:00

okay GG MAN. i'm officially sick. been having cramps since i dunno when! and this morn when i just woke up i was down w non-stop sneezing and thought i had fever. argh. and i just had indigestion i hope none of this will continue :(

so the events i've missed: final night of church camp, 2 whole days of chalet :(((((
tmr gonna miss last half a day too for submission of applications. :( just hope i'll make it for the other outings (eating & photospree & haircut), and txy camp :(

omg this sucks big time. haveta build up immune system! but now i have no appetite at all. ah well hope church camp was boomz still :D and hope peeps are having a great time at chalet! :) boohooo ~~self pity starts now~~

oh and HAVE FUN AT PROM PPLZ! :D lucky i didn't sign up for prom gonna miss it anyway at the state i'm going.

to kill boredom, here's an age-old quiz/meme! source most likely fm fb.

1. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: Double-decked bed with me on upper bunk. sharing a room w my annoying sis (:

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING RIGHT NOW? Bible. Jodi picoult's newest book. just finished reading the letter writer (forgot by who) & light beneath ferns by anna spollen.

3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSEPAD? I ain’t got no mousepad, yo

4. FAVOURITE BOARD GAME: the game of LIFE! Very time-consuming but I like. Haven't played since in pri sch. I wanna play! :D

5. FAVOURITE MAGAZINE: any without the cliché or supposedly juicy news. FASHION MAGS HELLYEAH! Most preferably with posters or very detailed stories about my fave singers/bands (a rare gem leh! Most cover stories are only a few paras long ._.)

6. FAVOURITE SMELLS: fried food. Mama's cooking. Lavender. Fruity perfume.

7. LEAST FAVOURITE SMELLS: smoke. Can’t stand it. garbage smells better than smoke pls.

8. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD: grief/sickness

9. FAVOURITE SOUND: sound of waves crashing, possibly soothing music (harp/flute :D), music I love (hillsong, bigbang etc!)

10. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? Is it like, the weekends? (for now, more of – OMGAWSH I OVERSLEPT ._. & thinking of God)

11. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? 2-5 depending on where I am. my handphone, er sometimes not at all if it's on silent mode - vibrationless phone :(

12. FAVOURITE COLOUR: ORANGE ORANGE ORANGE NO DOUBT. Pastel colours – pink, baby blue, limegreen, purple

13. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME: (will decide when the time comes)

14. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE? GOD, FAMILY AND FRIENDS

15. FAVOURITE FOODS: potatoes cooked in any way. JUNK FOOD, ICE CREAM, COOKIES, PASTRIES, chocolate, the usual awesome hawker fare :D, mum's cooking

16. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? I hate driving. Won't buy a car nor drive next time I think

18 CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Chocolate, of course! :D fudge, yummmm

17. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Nope. I sleep with my blanket & carrot bolster. Think I’ll probably get asthma attacks if I do.

20. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? Quoting manda, “I don't HAVE a first car, nor do i intend to get one.”

21. IF YOU COULD MEET SOMEONE DEAD OR ALIVE, WHO WOULD IT BE? Probably my late grandfather. I kinda miss him

22. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? Monkeykeykey.

23. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? None!

24. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? Yesh! I think they’re the only parts I’d prefer. I don’t really like broccoli, prefer cauliflower.

25. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB, WHAT WOULD IT BE? A photographer/ food conoisseur/tv host who gets to travel the world :D i'd have to be really rich for the job to sustain even myself

26. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR, WHICH COLOUR WOULD IT BE? Dark Brown with blonde/red highlights! (:

27. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? Don’t think so

28. IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? It’s half empty when you want more water and half full when you want to pour some away.

29. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS OVER THE RIGHT KEYS? yeap :)

30. FAVOURITE MOVIES: GET SMART, YES MAN, STARDUST, ENCHANTED, HANCOCK etc

31. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? My sis’s bed. Cool, not? (:

32. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE NUMBER? 7, 8, 9, 21. don’t like my bday digits though.

33. FAVOURITE WAY TO RELAX: listening to music, watching vids of hillsong live, sleeping, talking/laughing/crapping with family/friends, hanging out and doing goofy stuff with friends, going to the beach and feeling the waves crashing on my feet, looking at awesome views of nature, being one w nature :D

34. WHAT DO YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF? practically everything actually.

35. WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE DO YOU HATE? People who assume they know and forcing their assumptions on me.

i think there was supp to be more but i lost them. aww. tata then!

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You have overseen my life and brought me to redemption
And I know that You’re not finished with me yet

You’re the one who spoke the Word of life to light my darkness
You opened up my eyes ’til I could see
Jesus You have promised to complete the work You started
Faithful to fulfill Your grace in me

Pour out Your love from heaven
Fill me until I overflow ’cause I want more
Reach down Your hands from heaven
Pull me closer than ever before Lord I want more

2010-12-13T09:58:00.003+08:00

yeeeeeowch. major cramps man, how'm i gonna survive 2 days of chalet & the days after??? argh i hate this feeling :((((( ohmannnn and i haven't packed when i'm supp to meet the rest at 245pm. GG TTM.

I DON'T HAVE A DSLR CAN SOMEONE SAVE ME?

Do we really feel with our hearts?

2010-12-12T19:48:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna make a list of things I wanna do before I die. Inspired by the book 'Before I Die'. ~~I'm trying to type sentences with a Capital Letter In Front. (:~~

1. Go singing & BBQ with friends
2. Go anywhere which has four seasons and any great scenery which i see on flickr :D (Most ideally Boston/ New Zealand) and experience all the four seasons! esp spring and winter!
3. Make a snowman, take photos in the snow, touch snow, make a snowangel!
4. Take photos of a wedding couple! (Best if done professionally :D)
5. Take pictures of a rainbow/ fireworks
6. Go to the beach with my family again
7. Get reallllllllllly fat. (:
8. Be in love, not those kind of love in TV dramas
9. Discover new things to do in life
10. Live in the countryside with the farms and animals and fields and flowers - quite impossible ):
11. do God's work - but not as a leader definitely (mission trips!)
12. volunteer my services to those in need
13. do smth related to writing/fashion
14. be in awe of God's creations, always. (cherry blossoms, rainbows, meadows, flower fields, leafless trees, animals etc)
15. study overseas (but too many considerations!)

just added!
And the list continues next time when I want to edit this list. (:

Jiayou for the trip to Brisbane! and Sabah lol! Will miss you all a lot T_T Must buy souvenirs hor!

Gosh, typing like this really makes me feel dead. shall drop the caps. (:

When only love could make a way

2010-12-11T21:28:00.004+08:00

dunno why ppl wna shop overseas for the usual clothes/ accessories when there's bugis st. :) i'm so going back next time if i'm feeling materialistic (oooops). need a music player damn badly. made up a list of stuff i wna buy too, but first haveta work! no $$$ :(

omg i'm so tired. i just wna plop on my bed and sleep :( sigh i need more energy to move on! ahh super weak physically but w You i'm strong! yikes i hate applications and dilemmas but i think my mind is made up :) fight all the way!

can't really find the words to put it anymore. typing out is too taxing.

really sad that i'm not in church camp now :( wish i didn't sign up for syd chalet and txy camp :((((( i hope the peeps enjoying themselves though, i'm sure they will! still haven't packed, and lotsa stuff undone. well i hope i'll make use of my time fruitfully tmr.

thank God for huiyi my future Bible study mate :)

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You were waiting at the door
Then I let you in

Trading your life
For my offenses
For my redemption
You carried all the blame

When only love could make a way
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange

My burden erased
My life forgiven
There is nothing that could take this love away
And my only desire and sole ambition
Is to love you just the same

Things I'm thankful for

2010-12-07T11:35:00.001+08:00

Decided to do something meaningful to cheer myself up, and not take what I have for granted.

The things I'm thankful for in life:

1. Being able to see colours.
2. Having people who genuinely care when I'm in the dumps.
3. Breathing relatively clean air (as long as no one smokes, ugh)
4. Being able to walk normally
5. Being able to eat nonstop and not see visible changes in my body size -.-
6. Having people to love. And to love you back.
7. Finding your purpose in life.
8. Being able to take photos.
9. Being able to feel the wind
10. Not giving a _ about how people see you, just sometimes
11. Believe in something and not losing hope in life
12. Having ample resources, food, water, money, a shelter over my head
13. Being able to laugh till my sides ached.
14. Being able to use the Internet and computer :D
15. Able to fangirl like mad with funny people :D
16. Listening to music I love
17. Running till I'm out of breath
18. Listening to the sound of rain / feeling droplets of rain on me
19. Seeing cats on sidewalks
20. Seeing rainbows, sunsets, clouds, nature.
21. Not having to worry that my house will collapse any time, or that bombs will fall any moment.
22. Being able to appreciate language.
23. Being able to see, smell, taste, touch and feel.
24. Being able to make music with people I love.
25. Being bilingual (I wna be trilingual, or more :D)
26. Able to create art, which I truly identify with.
27. Being able to interact with animals
28. Laughing at the simplest things
29. Awesome shows on TV (proj runway season 5, zettai kareshi, corner with love etc)
30. Being able to recall my past, all the happy memories.
31. Your unending grace!
32. Not finding satisfaction in mere material wants.
33. Awesome instances of love
34. Soul-cleansing music

updated! to be updated and reposted in the future. :D

2010-12-07T10:41:00.004+08:00

needa clear the thoughts from my head. it seems like when i think positive thoughts they're immediately drowned by negative ones.
i need to escape to somewhere, some place of fiction, some place where no one can see me, where no one knows me.
yet i know i'll miss this place.
argh just need some time alone to cry? i guess that's the only way to let my emotions escape without burdening myself any further.
i don't think there's any need for me to update on events, cos i've found another way of keeping track. (photos, neoprints, mementos, flyers, brochures, papers)
so this place will just be for my emotions / thoughts. :)
been a hectic week of being w people, seems like i really need time alone. not even talking w my family helps i think.
i really dno what's wrong w me.
God i really need your Word but i'm too lethargic to do anyth anymore. i sleep more than 10hours a day and still am tired. it feels like i'm living in this abyss, i don't even have the motivation to reach out for my dreams.
and it does feel that i'm straying further from You yet i really don't want that to happen.
please speak to me, guide me to what is right.
i think i need a sidekick to talk to, about my deepest darkest secrets, emotions, etc.
how to go beyond the superficial?
ohwell i hope it's just my moodswings. urgh hate this feeling.
yeah but nothing will stop me from loving You, that's for certain. still trying hard to trust people more but i guess that's a scar that'll last for quite a while more. but i think i'm making improvements :)
WFL prompted me to start thinking about how i've changed for the better aft knowing God, and i'm still compiling the list in my head haha. hopefully each day there'll be smth more to add to the list!
note to self: fasting from youtube except for worship songs!
lastly, thank You for all the little surprises and instances of love in my life!
okay, now for hectic Dec. schedules packed ttm. that really wasn't how i imagined post A's to be! but i'll persevere :)
music on klove heals me. cos it's music for Your people and for You.

Your body’s the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

2010-12-03T20:43:00.005+08:00

wow this week has been such a blast i dunno where to begin!
4 hour cookout (excluding testing/preparation and buying ingredts) and word for life!
cleared out my books & clothes today w Mum&sis, and it was awesome though we're all having runny noses haha. feels so clean and i can finally read my relevant/interesting books w/o having to struggle.
suddenly it feels weird blogging about my life. maybe i should stop.
i'm just super thankful that God found me! and for all the awesome people around me.
rarhhhh outings outings. suddenly running out of ideas when all i wanted a few months ago was just to go out w fam&friends. uber weird.
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Where others see failure and struggle, God sees the qualifications to be used mightily.

2010-12-03T20:43:00.001+08:00

A little girl...

tends to be self absorbed

- generally unaware of others' feelings and inflexible when it comes to accommodating others' needs

- wants to be the center of attention, whether overtly or by default

- high maintenance at home, school, workplace

lacks discretion, insight and wisdom

- behaves inappropriately at important (personally i don't think it should be just impt times, should beall the time) times and rarely thinks about consequences

- more impulsive than thoughtful

makes others responsible for her happiness

- dependent on others for her sense of value and is highly influenced by what others say

- always seeking others' approval and becomes angry/bitter if she doesn't get it

- the need to feel attachment to another human being to feel whole

avoids getting close to God

- angry w Him most of the time, blames Him for her troubles but still expect God to rescue her

- Recognizes that God has plans for others but thinks He overlooked her when handing out His favour

has a hard time being a wife/mother/good friend/(basically whatever role you are in)

- uh self explanatory? hahaha!

- being a 'taker' and seldom a 'giver' in relationship

takes a cynical approach to life and the future

- believes her life to be of little value and often sees her future as quite bleak

- longs for the good old days and compares where she used to be with where she is

- sighs as each new day begins

and of course there are other behaviours that a 'little girl' might exhibit. Maybe in such good days, you might not be this way but think about whether you might be acting in this manner when you're faced with obstacles.

So, next question. What is a big girl? (quite the opposite of the little girl)

Cares more about others than herself

- sensitive to others and their needs

- generous and doesn't patronize those who have more

treats others well and expects to be treated well herself

possesses remarkable discretion, insight and wisdom

- sensible and reasonable

- advice generally sound and reliable

- knows when to speak and when to stay silent

- doesn't take herself too seriously, meaning she can laugh at herself and others (haha uh)

- recognizes that everything she does has a consequence, hence thoughtfully considers before she makes her move

- responsible and hold herself accountable but she also recognizes the things for which she is responsible and the things for she is not

- if she falters, she does what she can to rectify the situation and move on, does not spend hours in the 'if only' and 'what if' patch*

understands that she is responsible for her own happiness

- comfortable being herself

- doesn't need to seek approval from others and she doesn't need to have a significant other to feel significant

- lives authentically because she believes she has nothing to lose and nothing to prove

- knows what she does well and what she doesn't, admits both easily

- keen to improve on what she does poorly if she needs to

- what she doesn't need to do well, she leaves alone

invites God to be part of all that she does

- and at the same time, accepts His invitation to be part of all that He does

- loves and respects God

- comfortable with God whether her days are good or bad

- knows what she believes but is open to learning more and even to being corrected

- loves being a woman and recognizes her place in the grand plan of her loving Lord

embraces/understands/delights her role as a ___

sees her life as valuable but fleeting

- looks to the future knowing she'll leave a legacy be it good or bad

- appreciates the past but look at each new day as the 'day which the Lord has made and rejoice and be glad in it' ps118:24

So what to do from this point on?

Well, the stability of a big girl's life doesn't come just because you would like to have it, you must choose to pursue it.

The pursuit will be difficult and your choices will have consequences but often the hard choices are the ones that ultimately make life easier.

So now, let's put away our childish ways.. as it's also said in 1 cor 13:11 (nlt) :)

from dear Karmen :)

2010-11-29T12:10:00.003+08:00

been sleeping like a pig these days, omg i shouldn't waste my life away like that HAHAHA
food testing later gonna be awshum though i haven't cooked in a year! but nvm sean&seet will save me hahaha!
lalala exciting year ahead! God i won't be a fish out of water anymore! will embrace all the lovely chances you give :) though i'm a little confused now, i know i'll find the answers real soon :)
okay i needa find some way to consolidate my online life it's getting reaaaally distracting maybe i should take a break from cyberspace! it's eating into my life GRR.

2010-11-28T16:26:00.002+08:00

Receive reward! Highly qualified and educated Man will pay you handsomely for referral that assists Him in obtaining employment. Act now time is of the essence!

Hello. My name is: Jesus -The Christ. Many call me: Lord! I’ve sent you my resume because I’m seeking the top management position in your heart. Please consider my accomplishments as set forth in my resume.

Qualifications:

I founded the earth and established the heavens, (See Proverbs 3:19)
I formed man from the dust of the ground, (See Genesis 2:7)
I breathed into man the breath of life, (See Genesis 2:7)
I redeemed man from the curse of the law, (See Galatians 3:13)
The blessings of the Abrahamic Covenant comes upon your life through me, (See Galatians 3:14)
Occupational Background:

I’ve only had one employer, (See Luke 2:49). I’ve never been tardy, absent, disobedient, slothful or disrespectful. My employer has nothing but rave reviews for me, (See Matthew 3:15-17)

Skills Work Experiences:

Some of my skills and work experiences include: empowering the poor to be poor no more, healing the brokenhearted, setting the captives free, healing the sick, restoring sight to the blind and setting at liberty them that are bruised, (See Luke 4:18). I am a Wonderful Counselor, (See Isaiah 9:6). People who listen to me shall dwell safely and shall not fear evil, (See Proverbs 1:33). Most importantly, I have the authority, ability and power to cleanse you of your sins, (See I John 1:7-9)

Educational Background:

I encompass the entire breath and length of knowledge, wisdom and understanding, (See Proverbs 2:6). In me are hid all of the treasures of wisdom and knowledge, (See Colossians 2:3). My Word is so powerful; it has been described as being a lamp unto your feet and a lamp unto your path, (See Psalms 119:105). I can even tell you all the secrets of your heart, (See Psalms 44:21).

Major Accomplishments:

I was an active participant in the greatest Summit Meeting of all times, (See Genesis 1:26). I laid down my life so that you may live, (See II Corinthians 5:15). I defeated the archenemy of God and mankind and made a show of them openly, (See Colossians 2:15). I’ve miraculously fed the poor, healed the sick and raised the dead! There are many more major accomplishments, to many to mention here. You can read them on my website, which is the BIBLE.

References:

Believers and followers worldwide will testify to my divine healings, salvation, deliverance, miracles, restoration and supernatural guidance.

In Summation:

Now that you’ve read my resume, I’m confident that I’m the only candidate uniquely qualified to fill this vital position in your heart. In summation, I will properly direct your paths, (See Proverbs 3:5-6), and lead you into everlasting life, (See John 6:47). When can I start? Time is of the essence, (See Hebrews 3:15).

Send this resume to everyone you know, you never know who may have an opening! Thanks for your help and may God bless you!

2010-11-23T22:51:00.004+08:00

faith really goes a long way. Your unending grace GMH :) having my future so uncertain just made me realise how much i need(ed) You :) as well as my family (L) i know You have plans for me and know what's best for me :)
whee one more paper left!
gotta cut my hair, open 'champagne', movies, outings, teoheng, photography, syd, chalets, camps, mags, food spree, craft, handmade stuff, scrap, volunteer! and of course service and lg! yayyyyy!
not to forget my cyber life as well sadly -_-
hope i can go for thanksgiving dinner! :)
on a sidenote, i dunno why i can never get angry w my friends. though i really rmb being quite let down. hahaha!
hmmmmm more time w family! hopefully!

2010-11-22T10:17:00.002+08:00

hope i won't break down again. :( :)
am i my greatest enemy? hmmm i think yes. omg wth i hate to admit it but it's true! omo. gotta do smth about it! believe in myself, trust in God most imptly.
4 more days! wow it's so fast.

2010-11-20T16:05:00.004+08:00

sucks that i can't go for service today.. and the drilling's driving me crazy! lucky my sneezing stopped (touch wood) but omo no lg lunch/service/sermon :(
i hate being sick!!
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well i dunno what this means and what step to take next.. but still i trust You :)
rawr btr eat more my appetite has been real bad and brainblocking during exams. uber BAD.
heh the Bible's so interesting i wna know more more more!
and christian radio stations ftw. e.g klove/100.7fm (L)
i wna do mission trips/work!
*
and poof 6 more days then can open redwine to celeb LOL thanks mama (L)
sleep marathon here i come!
and shopping spreeeeee and i sudd don't feel like watching harrypotty cos it looks too shocking for my own good lol. lucky it's not in 3D! can you imagine voldie's face 3D cos i can't. will get asthma attack.

2010-11-18T22:18:00.004+08:00

God i'm just gonna let you take the wheel down this road. my fate is in your hands but i feel damn safe. :) no more self denial/lack of confidence k! promise to try.

okay though i don't trust a certain someone, must have agape and trust fully in You :) everyth will be alright!

eeyer my tagboard hates me. cheater.
karmen: heya haha can la my twitter got my blog link what :) thanks girl! praying for you too God bless! lucky you one-paper-per-weeker! can play alr!

2010-11-17T14:17:00.003+08:00

dear God, i hope everything works out. :(

feels like i'm backsliding and i know it. i know my purpose but lost my drive cos A's will not help in achieving my purpose at all!

if i could do it for prelims why can't i do it now eh? hmm.

so lethargic now i feel like i'm having a hangover lol

2010-11-16T09:33:00.003+08:00

feels like i woke up on the wrong side of bed today! zomg so freaking tired.
and where did my motivation go? *nonono cannot think of after A's it's sooooo distracting*
what i really need: smth to boost my energy. and brain cells to multiply.

hmm anyway had this calling to visit jocelyn's tumblr and i found this! :)

1. “The greatest pleasures in life are the ones that others say you can’t do.”

2. “The power of your dream must be more powerful than your excuses.”

3. “The day you stop living is the day you stop dreaming.”

4. “Don’t look at the problem, look at the solution.”

5. “When you fall, there’s always something to learn.”

6. “Dream big - those who think they can do it, will achieve it.”

7. “It’s ALWAYS too soon to quit.”

8. “The first step to becoming is to be willing.”

9. “Happy are those who have dreams and are willing to sacrifice what’s needed to achieve it.”

10. “Once you start, don’t stop, go all the way.”

11. “Perseverance, determination, motivations will be able to move mountains.”

12. “Our greatest fear is ourselves, so dare to move on.”

13. “You’re either a loser, or you achieve your dreams.”

14. “Procrastination is the greatest thief of all time.”

15. “Preparation is the key to success.”

16. “Use your smile to change the world, don’t let the world change your smile.”

17. “Individual glory is insignificant compared to team glory.”

18. “Overcome challenges rather than let challenges overcome us.”

In order to move out of the shell you have moulded with the externalities, you first need to be willing to move. Comfort zone’s easy to stay in when you’ve gotten used to the valleyways; but the warm sun’s really a lot more pleasant to get used to. So take it up, all your yoke and dreams, and move impetuously. Be reckless, unrestrained and impulsive in wanting to move out, just in case you hesitate and put down your baggage yet again. Make the decision to move, and from then on, be sane, wise, and responsible.

You’re on your own now.

thanks girl! hope to see you soon!

hope i know what are God's plans for me! woohoooo love spiritual blogs! gonna read all our dear leaders' blogs aft A's!

2010-11-15T11:50:00.004+08:00

ahhh need some strength to face the music here
should i have tuition tmr? i realllly don't wanna. but then thinking of sermon last week, God tests your love.. and it's just a few more sessions.. argh dilemma.

omg these few days my QT were spent in bed i feel soooo guilty. haveta really sit down and conc! fell asleep last night looping Stronger by Hillsong and i woke up w a jolt around 12plus thinking it was 4am and time to wake up! hmm freaky i seldom do this. i thot i heard my alarm.

ok wonder how i got by the past week. it was literally just -_- sneezing and trying to mug my head off. and consec papers really do kill esp when you're sick. the days just felt like a trip on a bullet train to hell, ohman am so glad 'the worst' (or not) is over! thank God for the amazing strength You gave me! i was really blown away!

left two of my most feared subjs. :( will i get through this? with You, i def can! :D sigh need the strength and to completely surrender to You. i can't seem to study at night wish the sun could be up all day!

2010-11-14T11:43:00.003+08:00

service ytd was so inspiring :) esp sermon omg loads of things to internalise! :)
and i must be more expressive to Him. can't seem to pray aloud eh :(

oooooh must get all weird thoughts out of my head and concentrate! i'm such a sinner. :(

yay lemongrass drink now (L) my mamaaa
haveta really chiong now but i have no idea how!!
but it's k, cos when i'm weak, God is strong. and when i feel strong, God makes me stronger. :) no fear!

2010-11-13T10:20:00.005+08:00

Because Your cross has placed in me my worth.
i have so many things to say to You :) hehehe shall reserve it for later woohoo! :)

just hope i'll hang in there for the 4 more papers (Y) with You i know i can do it but no more complacency i promise!

2010-10-30T23:57:00.004+08:00

surreal, amazing day today. (L)
AND NOW TO REALLY STRIVE

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and finally i can declare proudly, that I'm a child of God! yay! feel so relieved :)
for those who're surprised, feel free to ask me in person :)
hmm have a coupl'a posts in my private blog :) like a mad obsession haha!

God sends us crises in private. have to keep bearing in mind. DON'T YOU GIVE UP OK! these obstacles are just a mean of glorifying Him and not meant to let you fall!

2010-10-22T22:28:00.005+08:00

just had to get this off my chest.
surmounting stress.
so many things running, sprinting, leaping across the synapses of my brain, through my head.
you really shouldn't have said that, and I UTTERLY DISLIKE YOU. well since you like belittling me, I'LL PROVE YOU MY WORTH. and grow up please. OPEN UP YOUR FREAKING EYES
to self: it shouldn't be an excuse even if she doesn't care! JUST DO YOUR OWN STUFF. how can you progress if you don't make the effort?!

NO COMPLACENCY EVER.
fighting.

2010-10-14T18:43:00.004+08:00

lack of food has its way of getting to me. i feel like i just fasted. hmm. time to do some self-reflection, since nothing. is. going. into. my brain. (i hope it kicks start again soon) and I SHOULD STOP WASTING TIME.

haha but yeah shall post smth heart-felt, i wanna blog about it before i forget. this marks some kinda milestone/impt stage in my life okay!
here goes..

have really changed a lot these 4 years. i think it was the most drastic change that ever happened to me.
i've become much, much more reserved.
sometimes it feels torturous, as if smth's tearing out at you and you wanna just let yourself loose with no reservations. but i controlled myself. controlled my emotions.

i guess it's refreshing in some kinda way :)
haha those who knew me from my sec3 days, i'm really sorry :P
used to be this freaking annoying person who talked without thinking; hurt others without knowing and laughed without any reservations whatsoever.
hate the arrogant self i was 2 years ago. omg how i abhor myself.

hee but haveta admit those 2 years were the best of my life. NOT cos of my hurting others okay! (rest assured) but cos i got to know some of the most amazing people ever. :) though we've drifted apart, those were some of the most memorable times of my life ^^ they'll be with me forever.

and though i now have fewer friends to hang arnd with, those who stuck by me are the people who really care. they do not judge by my flaws. they stick by me in times of thick or thin. though they do have their flaws, i'm so much more flawed than them and i still love them really very much. :) thank you, all you lovely people!

to those who're running this final lap! please do hang in there and take care of your health, drink loadsa water (cliche advice yeah i know) and eat fruits, study hard! YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
LET'S PLAY HARD AFT WE SURVIVE THESE TUMULTUOUS TIMES! :)
doubt anyone's reading, but just in case! fate has a way of working things out at the right time.

2010-10-02T12:04:00.001+08:00

Released on 2 Feb 2010, 5.40pm.

Arts & Social Sciences
10th percentile: ABB/C
90th percentile: AAA/A

Arts & Social Sciences (MT related)
10th percentile: BBB/C
90th percentile: BBB/B

okay. this is tough.

little speck of dust is going to create something big

2010-09-25T15:52:00.003+08:00

hoho i'm back! just some food for thought:

At every step along the way, your soul will be tested. Every test you pass will make you stronger.

What you are is God's gift to you. What you make of yourself is your gift to God. He is waiting for that gift right now. Make it something extraordinary.

Don't be someone you're not, don't be less than you are, don't give up what you believe.

People's ideas and fears can make them small - but they cannot make you small.

Small-minded people can think they determine your worth. But only you can determine your worth.

Living life defined by your own sense of possibility, not by others' notions of limitations, is the path to success.

“Anyone who says that money can’t buy happiness don’t know where to shop.”

"If you start judging people you will be having no time to love them." - Mother Teresa

"A true genius puts the textbook into his head, not his head into the textbook." [by falling asleep, i presume. haha]

one more month+!

and, replying to the most recent tag:
zt: yeap i do! on hiatus though. haha but uh i think this is the 2nd time i'm blogging this month! gosh.

2010-09-04T10:08:00.003+08:00

what went wrong?

planned too much, wasted lotsa time
didn't really follow plan
wasn't disciplined [stick to time allo]
didn't put in crucial points
didn't follow structure
didn't finish compre

what the hell was i thinking?!

what went right?

detailed plan [no freaking use]
improved on conclusion

i have to be disciplined from now on. consultations ftw.

But my love is inelastic and it all belongs to you

2010-08-15T18:55:00.003+08:00

haha came across this hilarious song when i was revising.

"Girl, being with you has always been so tough
With each passing minute, your marginal cost goes up
But my love is inelastic and it all belongs to you
I’m the only love producer, and my good is for you to consume

Because girl your marginal benefit far outweighs your marginal cost
Without our equilibrium baby, you know I’d be lost
Trapped inside this market I need you, to buy my love
Girl without your complementing goods, I’m not enough

Now you say that I’m producing, below my ATC
But I’m optimizing quantity baby, why can’t you see?
We could share this surplus, each and every day
If you would just buy my love, I’ll make my fixed costs go away

Baby I want to keep you for the long run, Oh yeah
I think our supply and demand, will become one…

Because girl your marginal benefit far outweighs your marginal cost
Without our equilibrium baby, you know I’d be lost
Long run equilibrium is no place for me
I need the profits of our love, to grow exponentially."

despite all the criticism, i think it's genius! :)

2010-07-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

i'm so disappointed with my complacency and pathetic brain space. :(
when will be the next time i can make full use of what i have?
probably never.

2010-05-31T21:42:00.002+08:00

i don't know if i'm making the right choice, but i'll try. i'm trying.
please give me a chance to get what i want :)

2010-04-02T23:10:00.001+08:00

I had known at the very deepest depths of my heart
That the best choice was the hardest from the very start
It keeps on opposing me, since I know my love cannot be
Then when can I tell you, if at all, before you depart?

In a world where everything is slowly being broken down
I'm struggling, but I know that it's for you to be around
While your engraved smiles are fading away
I should end it all

My voice is dry from calling out your name
Echoing off the walls to reach nobody
There's nothing left for me to be connected to you
While I am standing here all by myself, all alone

It occurred to me in the tranquility of last night
That gathering wilted petals won't make them alright
It never grew to a great size, though it was already dead to my eyes
Saying we finished a long time ago is too polite

I remember the season when me met so clearly
You had a certain grace when you smiled sincerely
Saying things we didn't want to recall, with no regard to our feelings at all
Our hearts must be laced with thorns that hurt severely

My head is caught outside the eye of the storm
I can't believe it, I just can't see past the winds
Even if I'm so determined, rain seeps past my shelters
And soaks me with a coldness that no covers can defrost

And now we will have to part ways without ever looking back

If only this once, if only this once
My wish could be made to become true
I'd ask to be born once again
And when I am, I will go to you in those days

My voice is dry from calling out your name
Echoing off the walls to reach nobody
There's nothing left for me to be connected to you
While I am standing here all by myself, all alone

Anything that tethered us two together
Seems to be breaking even more everyday
Goodbye to you, my dearest love, for we've come to the end
And now we will have to part ways without ever looking back

Because we've finally reached the end

2010-03-11T21:13:00.002+08:00

on a hiatus now, please don't use the tagboard 'cause it causes pop-ups and is super irritating. plus, i won't be checking back on it as well. back after the major hurdle :]

2010-03-07T10:44:00.005+08:00

Saw this in my mailbox, and it's great food for thought.

"Love him or hate him, he hits the nail on the head with this! Bill Gates recently gave a speech at a High School about 11 things they will not learn in school. He talks about how politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world.

Rule 1:Life is not fair - get used to it!

Rule 2: The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time..

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one."

so yeah, this is for all adolescents out there. and for myself to look back on and make sure i adhere to it. :)

2010-03-01T22:14:00.003+08:00

have to get some things off my chest.

what exactly am i yearning for? dreams that seemed so possible to achieve, now look distant and defunct. it doesn't just take your heart and soul, it takes time. time is the most essential. no matter how hard i want something, i still need time to pursue it.

for the sake of the 7 months, i will persevere. the only chance i will get such a well-deserved (or not?) break.

‘Cause this is love and life

2010-02-13T15:27:00.006+08:00

Valentine's Day celebration was superb. I love the spirit of exchanging gifts. (cause I don't get to do that during Christmas) And the lovely helium heart balloons, though they weren't eternal. I felt really sad when they no longer floated. I still don't dare to try the helium voice thingy. Helium balloons are love, in the LT and classroom :D

A big thank you to Huiyi, Joce, Rach, Tzuhsiang, Wenxin, Jiayi, Liren, Zhiming for the fortune cookies, jelly, sweets, balloons, gummy bears, snacks, sweet notes, chocolates and uber big plushie. :D I treasure the notes the most, yeah :D Also, happy 18th birthday Jocelyn! I hope you enjoyed the cake and surprises in school! :D And hope you didn't get muscle aches from carrying so much presents :P

Have a happy Chinese New Year everyone!

Leona Lewis - I Got You

A place to crash
I got you
No need to ask
I got you
Just get on the phone
I got you
Come and pick you up if I have to
What’s weird about it
Is we’re right at the end
And mad about it
Just figured it out in my head
I’m proud to say
I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye
I’ll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you
I got you

Ain’t falling a part, or bitter
Let’s be bigger than that and remember
The cooling outdoor when you’re all alone
We’ll go on surviving
No drama, no need for a show
Just wanna say
I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye
I’ll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you
Go ahead and say goodbye (go ahead)
I’ll be alright (say goodbye)
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you

‘Cause this is love and life
And nothing we can both control
And if it don’t feel right
You’re not losing me by letting me know

Go ahead and say goodbye (say goodbye)
I’ll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you
Go ahead and say goodbye (go ahead)
I’ll be alright (say goodbye)
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you

A place to crash
I got you
No need to ask
I got you

staring at the photograph that no longer has your face

2010-01-24T15:17:00.003+08:00

Really sorry for not updating :(

I realise I have to take at least a whole year to read through all my archives. And I'm beginning to doubt the practicality of blogging. (heh and I will take forever to finish uploading all the photos from my series, day by day.)

Bah whatever.

On hiatus.

Remember that I love you all (L)

2009-12-13T18:31:00.004+08:00

I'm back from China after 14 days :D

I really shouldn't take so many things for granted, such as the air quality and weather here.

Anyway will update soon on each of the 14 days. Busy catching up on schoolwork and the internet LOL. Will look through all my photos soon, haha. And upload those requested.

Ooh my family went Bangkok when I was away. Thanks for buying stuff for me :D

Meanwhile I'll take a little hiatus. Will update about the trip when I feel like it, to keep as a record. (Not like anybody cares, plus I have photos :D)

Busy.

5 Math papers, Math test, CLL WS, CLL test, Econs hol package, CSC lunwen

In time my love unfurls

2009-11-13T15:32:00.007+08:00

Had a ball of a time ytd :D

After PW GPP submission and lunwen meetup, waited quite a while for lily who was running places. Had lunch at singpost with taotao and lily. Hmm was quite bloated. But I knew I'd get hungry aft awhile :/ ughhh

Went to lily's house, omg was funnnn. Wanted to do econs, (yah i know crazy lol) but ended up playing Scrabble, monopoly (pun intented), fishing game, (chess), and poker :D Animal Planet is the second amazingest channel ever :D i can't decide which is first, KBS? Haha. I soooo want cable :( I can't ask for more, I know.

Ahh thanks for everything, all the laughter and fun. :D And lily's mom for being so understanding and bearing with our craziness too.

heh, now i'm so not tempted to start work.

to buy list:
1. 破天荒 (sis)
2. 春‧日光

3. bigbang albums and merchandise

4. notebooks (cute/lines/thick) for xh

5. food for xh

6. wristbands/ gloves for sis

7. funky shoelaces

8. necklace chains

9. accessories (chunky rings)

anyone wna buy stuff from Beijing/ Shanghai feel free to let me know I'll try to buy for you :D of course you can ask bsp scholars to buy too, they're leaving on 21st nov.

Listening to koewo again :D And it's raining outside.

Now that you've come to me I don't have to run

2009-11-10T20:35:00.004+08:00

Quiz taken from Nicole Balloonn on fb. Doing this 'cause I'm sick of doing CSC :(

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
has always been the quality of a haystack :P I want tabi's hair quality :( sighh

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
I tell people a lot of stuff.

3. I've come to realize that all I really need:
is to lead a simple life with people I love :D

4. I've come to realize that I've lost:
loads of time.

5. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
people don't mean what they say.

6. I've come to realize that money:
is essential, and so many people are lacking from it so they cannot lead normal lives or sustain their living. yet at the same time, others are throwing billions away with outrageous scams and frauds. where is the logic in this??

7. I've come to realize that when I get old:
i might become reaaaally unhealthy, given the types of food i eat now.

8. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
thin? lol

9. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
bingu :D oh yeah indeed. is this bad?

10. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
forgot :D

11. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
is mostly idle, 'cause it's set to 'silent'

12. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
i take longer than usual to wash up. -.-

13. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
can't do anything 'cause once i get on the bed, i just drift off

14. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
CSC LUNWEN, OMGWTHBBQKFCERPCIPECPPIE.

15. I've come to realize that my life:
is okay once you find the right things to pursue. and strike a balance. :) and cherish it.

16. I've come to realize that my favourite drink is:
plain water and mountain dew. :)

17. I've come to realize that today I will:
and must complete something related to CSC.

18. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
same as above.

19. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
do the same thing, sadly :( tight deadlines ARGH

20. I've come to realize that I really want to:
pursue my dreams, and help others at the same time. and spend more time with people i love. somehow, it never seems to be enough.

21. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:
no one?

22. I've come to realize relationships are:
fragile.

23. I've come to realize food is:
important. especially for me.

24: I've come to realize that this holiday:
what holiday?

25. I've come to realize heartbreak is:
non-existent, because hearts can't be broken?

26.I've come to realize that my sister(s):
is crazy. like me :D

27. I've come to realize that crying:
helps when you're feeling so screwed. it does help to destress. but once i cry i can't stop lol.

28. I've come to realize that death:
is scary, at this stage in my life.

29. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
i feel like a burden. :(

Why does it end off in this tone? Hmph.

Oh thank you to the two lovelies for the wonderful time at my house :D Haha fishing game, bimbo uno (too ashamed of Barbie), and tetris and crime scene haahhaha :D
lily please check your email.

2009-11-09T16:29:00.003+08:00

6nov
Our class went Seoul Garden for lunch, and more than half turned up :) Haha glad I went. Lucky the librarian came in time for me to return my overdue book. :)

We ate for 3 hours straight (I think), which surprised me 'cause I didn't know we could EAT. Like at a steady pace and not stopping at all HAHA. The only people left eating in the end were Oli ZM Kelly Karmen and I. LOL

Thank you all so much for the surprise :D esp Linghong and Clara who went to buy the cake, and everyone else for keeping the surprise till the end :) I really appreciate it, 'cause it's already been so long since the actual date, and I didn't expect you all to rmb. So thank you once again :D And Happy Birthday to our BUH-LOOD sister :D

After lunch (which kinda stretched to dinner), we photo-spammed with two Macs on the stairs at some ulu place facing Esplanade. It was fun and unbelievable we could actually squeeze so many people in the frame hahaha. Photos up on fb, thanks Karmen :D 200 pics, so fun. :)

Yep talked a little on the steps and fangirled till the sun set too. Thanks oli linni and lh :D
IT WAS AN ENJOYABLE DAY, REALLY. :) Learnt quite a lot of insightful stuff too.

Thank you all for coming :)

7nov
Went xl's house to play :D LOL monopoly's tiring. And I owed her $9k at one point, but became bankrupt to have my debt reduced to $5k. I've never been so poor before, HAHAA. eeyer don't wna play anymore, hate counting money I owe. :(

Anyway played some pc games from my thumbdrive (awesome stuff), haha didn't know cruzer can do so much :D Wanted to watch cable but didn't get to. It was getting late so I took a bus home. Thanks for waiting w me :P

Now for buffet with zt and xl :D
And outing with jj
And CLEP trip

But before that, ughhh csc lunwen.

TTFN :D
And JIAYOU TO ALL FOR PW OP :D

P.S. I will try blocking out all unpleasant stuff here on my blog, 'cause I've found another place to rant. :D

koe wo kikasete

2009-10-31T16:41:00.005+08:00

Hi guys!

Lately the computer has been a magnet I've been trying to get rid of. But I can't cause of bingu, music, tumblr, flickr, plurk etc. And now I'll attempt to let OP / I&R be the main reason. :D

Been having PW madness. And oh I tell you, chionging pw in class is fun, with the lights off and almost everyone tapping away at their laptop except me, trying to memorise the script. I truly think so, I have no idea why too. It just feels so.

I have been getting my energy in music. :) My latest fave is Let Me Hear Your Voice by BigBang. :D I'm absolutely sorry if I sound like a fangirl in my previous post, 'cause I think I'm evolving into one, somebody save me please.

JIAYOU EVERYONE. WE WILL MAKE IT THROUGH.
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

PW MADNESS!

P.S. Please appreciate every single "!" you see because it's been painstakingly searched in my comp's database and pasted here. My keyboard's "!" is disabled.

P.P.S. Mainly using tumblr from now on, but still keeping this place alive. Oh I'm sure you'll be able to find me though.

Hey sorry kept forgetting to check my tagboard :P

Here are the replies!

/th: Cooked vermicelli :P

xiuli: LOL kk I shall refer later :D

VAN: Hey thank you :D Yeap doesn't hurt alr, but still have to wear the thingy. :(

jiajia: Thank you :D I can go out with you soon! After my OP! My ankle doesn't hurt now :D

zt: Hehe you're amazing. I can't agree with all of them though. Thank you for the bubbles again :D

fel-: Welcome here! Thanks ah. -.- You jiayou too! Heh don't care I still can type "!" :D

Random Thoughts From People Our Age

2009-10-15T20:14:00.004+08:00

Just to keep my blog alive (and kickin'):

I came across a post on Tumblr ages ago. People were reblogging it. So I decided to post it here.

Random Thoughts From People Our Age (Things that apply to me):

1.I wish Google Maps had an “Avoid Ghetto” routing option.
2.More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can’t wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that’s not only better, but also more directly involves me.
3.Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you’re wrong.
4.I don’t understand the purpose of the line, “I don’t need to drink to have fun.” Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they’ve invented the lighter?
5.Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you’re going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you’re crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.
6.That’s enough, Nickelback.
7.I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.
8.Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the “people you may know” feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?
9.Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn’t work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ’s. We just figured it out. Today’s kids are soft.
10. There is a great need for sarcasm font.
11. Sometimes, I’ll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it.
12. I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I’ll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone’s laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I’m still the only one who really, really gets it.
13. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
14. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in. (siao sure die one lol! I’d rather make more trips)
15. I think part of a best friend’s job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.
16. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text.
17. A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.
18. Was learning cursive really necessary? (never was, but fun!)
19. Lol has gone from meaning, “laugh out loud” to “I have nothing else to say”. (nonono! That’s my catchphrase!)
20. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger. (easy for me!)
21. Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying. (that goes for any MCQ test)
22. My brother’s Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, “Cuz we beat you, and you hate us.” Classy, bro.
23. Whenever someone says “I’m not book smart, but I’m street smart”, all I hear is “I’m not real smart, but I’m imaginary smart”.
24. How many times is it appropriate to say “What?” before you just nod and smile because you still didn’t hear what they said? (about 3 times I suppose, after that I give up HAHAH)
25. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!
26. Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using ‘as in’ examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss’s last name to an attorney and said “Yes that’s G as in…(10 second lapse)..ummm…Goonies”
27. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other? (LOVE THIS ONE)
28. While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it…thanks Mario Kart.
29. MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
30. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died. (but it’s an art form in itself because you can tell so much from it, e.g. financial background)
31. I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.
32. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever. (I half agree with this one, esp during long overseas trips.)
33. I would like to officially coin the phrase ‘catching the swine flu’ to be used as a way to make fun of a friend for hooking up with an overweight woman. Example: “Dave caught the swine flu last night.”
34. I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t at least kind of tired.
35. Bad decisions make good stories
36. Whenever I’m Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don’t mind if I do!
37. Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?
38. If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible. (OMG CARMEN SANDIEGO LOVE HER! HAHA)
39. Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I’m from, this shouldn’t be a problem…
40. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you’ve made up your mind that you just aren’t doing anything productive for the rest of the day.
41. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don’t want to have to restart my collection. (I’ve a limited collection :[ )
42. There’s no worse feeling than that millisecond you’re sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
43. I’m always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to. (SO TRUE.)
44. “Do not machine wash or tumble dry” means I will never wash this ever.
45. I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There’s so much pressure. ‘I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren’t watching this. It’s only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?’ (yes but I’m so used to having the remote in my hands, dunno why)
46. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What’d you do after I didn’t answer? Drop the phone and run away?
47. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
48. When I meet a new girl, I’m terrified of mentioning something she hasn’t already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.
49. I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it’s on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.
50. Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles…
51. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists. (nope they conserve environment)
52. Sometimes I’ll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.
53. It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.
54. I keep some people’s phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
55. Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn’t know what do to with it.
56. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket or Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I bet everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time…
57. My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day “Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?” How the hell do I respond to that?
58. It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.
59. I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.
60. I think the freezer deserves a light as well. [HAHAHA I THINK SO TOO. But won’t it use up more electricity! Conserve! :)]

2009-10-07T13:35:00.004+08:00

ColorGenics is amazing. I don't know if it is pure coincidence. Got this on my second try. (wasn't really 'conscious' on my first try so I got weird results)

At this time you are really feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about you and you are looking for some sort of protection from this state of affairs. Ideally you are seeking a peaceful condition and a tranquil environment in which you can be afforded the chance to relax and recover.

The way things are at this time is causing you considerable stress and anxiety. Your friends and acquaintances consider you to be - to say the least - difficult and unapproachable. Now it is because of this that you need to find some sort of solution. By doing nothing and waiting for matters to right themselves will only make things worse, but don't rush into making hasty decisions - make haste slowly.

You are not an argumentative sort of person and 'rather than fight - you'd switch' (an old cigarette ad cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet you tend to become inhibited. You keep it all to yourself but deep down, you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot. (happens all the time)

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.

Gonna attempt cooking lunch. Aha. :)

As if nothing's wrong

2009-10-02T20:52:00.007+08:00

I'm enjoying my un-deserved and temporary freedom until it lasts. My brain needs a break. I don't care if it's not justified.

I'm thinking if I should move to tumblr. But it just doesn't feel right if I move there. I can't bear to leave this place :) Besides, I have my share of photos on flickr. Tumblr shall just be my eye-candy place then :D

I'm really jaded. When I finished my last paper today I thought I'd be liberated. But all I felt was emptiness. And the dreaded feeling that I'd get retained, for sure.

There are many things I wanna type here but I'd better not. Some things are better kept to myself, or people who really matter :)

Alright outing tmr with peeps. I hope I'd have the energy to. I'm having inertia, omg. Where's the enthusiasm I've been wanting to have? Now that I have a short break, I don't even feel like going anywhere but slack and rot. It's a kind of luxury :)

Oh oh oh and mid-autumn celeb with family :D Looking forward to it.

On a sidenote, HAPPY BELATED NATIONAL DAY, CHINA! 我爱中国。The NDP ytd was impressive. Wow. Loved the fireworks. :) Thank God for live CCTV channels.

Been thinking about stuffs in The Daily Bread. Thank you Karmen :D I'll read it every day.

P.S. I LOVE T.O.P (L) His voice makes me feel better. Omg this is scary 'cause I've never been fangirling (like checking out vids and dramas on youtube). This is the first time (and I hope the last, really kills my time, although it's worth it :P). D:

Replies!

van: Hellooooo go out someday, really wanna spend more time with you :)

zt: Thanks for reviving it :D I hope someday you'll go out and take pics with me again. :)

xiuli: Haha what's with your flat fingers lah? No probs, thanks so much, it was nice talking with you :D Thanks for accompanying me to eat Mcflurry, LOL. Yay the songs are nice right? OWLCITY :D Ohyes I'd love to have it, thank you duper much :D

I'm holding on to something and I did not know why

2009-08-15T11:22:00.006+08:00

A lil update here.

For the whole week i've been occupied with studying, Publications which I doubt matters, mugging in library, and stuff.
rahhh.

1. Change of classroom to Learning Centre! Kinda guilty to the people who need it, but it's really a great studying environment, I love it :)
2. Been sleeping at 12+ for the whole week. I've got to get used to it. (sleep dependent)
3. Publications was okay, still dragging everything. Linda send me the headings PLEASEEEEEE.
4. Spirits Play yesterday. Was okay, not what I expected but still okay. I like the different languages layering into each other, a mixture of sounds, a rhythm of melodies (does this even make sense?) And the scares! They used the first sentence of the Bible in the last sentence of the Play. It was smth impactful, the start of something being the end of another, I wonder what that means. Is the director/scriptwriter against, or for religion?
5. Studied with Olivia at library before setting off on the bus. LOL I can't really study when eating and w her around :D
6. Wedding dinner tonight, chionging all my stuff now, argh.
7. PW tmr! which means no time for me to do Math revision, econs hw, CLL ws (two of them) + corrections, GP test! OMG. ARGH.
8. I MISSED CENTERSTAGE WTH. I NEED TO SEE CLIPS OF IT DESPERATELY.

CONGRATS TO ALL WINNERS! (XINQIAN + XINGQI, BENSIM + AMY) ESPECIALLY LIYANG + YUJIE! LOVE YALL! KNEW YOU'D WIN :)

Okay gonna start work now, tata! Be back at end of Promos unless something crops up.

P.S. CLASS POTLUCK, STILL THINKING OF IT, HAHAHA. FUNNY PICS ON FB :)

Replies!
karmen: hellooooooooo! thank you for coming!
zt: hehehe yes i know, i have other priorities i guess. :( this is just hectic.
xiuli: hahah i think so too! it used to be a daily kind of thing, but arh, impossible now. :(

2009-07-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

Okay I did a ColorGenics test at http://goldinuniverse.com/ and this exactly says everything I want to say.

"You are under considerable stress and you are almost about to 'blow your top' but you are fortunate enough to be able to exert control. Control is the name of the game and it is so good to realise that whatever the situation may be a this time - it will pass. You need to get away from everything for a while and if you do, you will find that, strangely enough, it will seem that most of your problems and situations will seem to wash away, just as the sea may wash away 'footprints' in the sand.

You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.

You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality."

Replies!

xiuli: HAHAHA NOT FUNNY. :)
wenyi: Thank you! It was the bug I'm sure. But now it's gastric, sian :(
van: Haha yup thank you! :) oh it's a church concert my friend invited me to go haha!

2009-07-23T22:43:00.005+08:00

Hello. I'm sick with flu and headache and sore throat. And I lost my appetite. It's really sad. :(

But I was okay in the morn! At least I think I was. I just felt really lethargic, that's all. And I had two teachers asking if I was okay. They seemed worried, lol. Slept really soundly during history before GP. Whoa.

After lunch I had great fun talking to van about stuff. And finally got to meet fel, we've not did stuff tgt for v long :(

Last night I think I broke record on the phone with chicken haha. Sorry! :(

I'm getting sick of songs such as A Movie Script Ending and Skyway Avenue! OH NO!

Felt really touched cos of all the 'take care' messages. Really hope I can go on for the concert on Saturday! :)

We're still worlds apart

2009-07-10T22:34:00.007+08:00

Slacking when I'm supposed to be doing HBL. :(

Was having this convo with chicken on facebook, lol

chicken: OMGOMGOMG
I WENT TO YOUR BLOG
AND I WAS LISTENING AS THE BEAR DANCES
LOL
i thought the music was from a game?
LOL
but then anyways
afterwards i go attempt bejeweled again :X
i got 32, 100
LOL
FINALLY BREAK RECORD

me: WAH WAH WAH. MY BLOG GIVES YOU LUCK
HAHAHA
i wish i could save this convo

LOL fb doesn't allow convo saving so sad. (chicken don't kill me hor) ugh stupid simsocial lag my internet + made it auto close GRR.

Blogger doesn't allow me to post pics anymore. :( I want to post pics! :(

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Yay finally can upload pics! :D

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Sorry forgot to reply tags!
nicole: Hahaha! Yeah but I have flickr alr :) I'll check those out next time! LOL
wenyi: LOL v fun to see backstage wedding work! Huh got such thing ah? Eeyer lousy blogger. I attached the pic three times and clicked 'done' but it didn't appear in my post. But now can alr! :D
van: Thanks! Was super no-time and wrote till hand and arm died. :( How's your freedom? :D
zt: Omg what's carpal tunnel? You told me before but I forgot. LOL i'm dying from HBL and publ.
xiuli: Dunno what talking you. OMG YTD'S EPISODE WAS FUNNY :D

Like charades, this going over of memories

2009-07-07T12:56:00.007+08:00

2nd last paper today! 07.07, what a nice date :D I'd better blog about 4th + 5th july now :) Good memories are meant to stay.

04.07
Aunt's church wedding! Reached her house at 7.20am and started taking pics and stuff, btw the photographer's cam is HEAVY. I thought the sch's DSLR was alr a toll. I was wrong. LOL. Hmm then the groom came, and they gave him loads of weird stuff to eat e.g. 3 biscuits with grounded chilli padi D: + super sweet drink, lol! & he had to answer trivia about my aunt + sing! And the sisters kinda extorted money from him hahah! + he made 10 promises to my aunt, :)

Then my cousins and I went with my aunt to the groom's house, more photo-taking of tea ceremony + buffet! Then back to my aunt's house for tea ceremony, photo spam again. Then slacked in the room with cousins + piano playing, ate lunch and set off for church.

Haha was nervous being bridesmaid for first time! I nearly cried when they were singing the chinese song, dunno why. The roses were nice but gave me sneezes non-stop D: Then tunch (teabreak+lunch? LOL) + dessert!

Overall it was really nice, warm & fuzzy, heart-warming etc. :)

05.07
Reached Crowne Plaza at 7+, then went up to my aunt's room. It's gorgeous :D Put on makeup (personally I think it's troublesome) + clip-on earrings! Thanks shenshen :D + ate some stuff there haha. & watched a bit of War Of The Worlds.

Went into the dining room at around 8+, just before the bride & groom :D Yay then photo-taking! Hahaha drank some champagne (oh gosh I'll never take alcohol again, red wine still okay but champagne is :X) and more photo-taking! And loads of yumsengs. Uh my cousin had his sis's ring stuck on his little finger D: Took photo! Can blackmail him :D

The dishes were okay, they added a yamcake in hahaha. Crab soup was more okay than previously! :D Duck was nice too, but couldn't finish. Okay I shall stop food-critiquing. Their video had Jason Mraz's songs in it :D I'm Yours and Lucky! After everyth my parents ahma etc had to shake hands with the guests, then we joined the queue to shake hands with them LOL.

Went up to aunt's room to chill again :D Watched tv, ate stuff, checked out the toilets, photospammed (I don't like the word camwhore lol) and took videos of Guama-mia! HAHAHA. :) My cousins are uber fun.

LOL the hotel has this cool pool on the 3rd floor room which you can see the first storey at the bottom of the pool! At night it's super eerie. & even if it's uber shallow I won't dare to go in D:

Went ahma's house to put the wedding album back and stuff. :) Reached home at around 1.30am. Was bushed. Aww man but I want another day like that.

Gugu, I hope you'll be happy, hope you've had a great honeymoon! We love you, and will always do :) The rest of my wishes are in the video :)

P.S. weird, blogger's uploading feature smth wrong.

wenyi: HAHAHA, DUH IT'S SUPERLY NICE :D
yingjie: It's okay :) Shall I link you?

The light is heartbreaking

2009-07-02T11:32:00.007+08:00

Things I'm gonna do when CTs end:

- Create icons
- Create combined pics (sunset + bokeh)
- Spreeeeeeeeee (eating + shopping) fondues and sundaes and mcflurries.
- Get on a sugar high!
- Photog outing!
- Create tumblr
- Spam plurk (as always) & get more ppl to join! :)
- Outing with loves (hopefully)
- Reactivate my deviantart + reply comments
- BLISS
- MUGMUGMUG for promos! (never too early)

Hope I'll fulfil all these. Saw a very inspiring article by this guy called Gary Hayden in Mind Your Body. Haha he talks about Seneca the Roman philosopher. I think it's quite cool :)

"Seneca admits that there is nothing more difficult to learn than how to live. (That, I disagree. Look at CSC! x( ) But one thing seems clear: Learning to live requires us to think long and hard about what really matters and then spending time pursuing it. (That will take me ages)"

There were other articles by him but I didn't keep them :( kinda regret now. One more thing to add to my list :)

Uhh, CTs are a disaster so far. I don't wanna think about it. Work going down the drain, information stuck in my brain even aft I took the tests. Which is weird. My brain's acting quite weirdly this year.

I was writing a compo about 盛夏which practically means the hottest day of summer, ytd when it was raining heavily. Talk about irony -.-

You said move on, where do I go?

2009-06-21T20:04:00.006+08:00

Eventful week of trying to study and catch up on entertainment (mainly TV) :)

Ooh went Crowne Plaza for dinner. The ambience is lovely, great lighting throughout the hotel, and omg nice decorations :D I wanna work in a place like that, but ah, just another fantasy :P

Absolute Boyfriend is sweet. I like the plot so far, hahaha. It ends at 1.30am though :( Kinda late. Went St Hilda's Chapel of Christ the Redeemer for aunt's wedding rehearsal. Kinda cool, a church in a sch. And umm kinda nervous for the actual day.

Club 8 has super duper great music which I can't resist :) Makes me feel so calm.

Okay, time to chiong literature review which I have no absolute idea of how to do.

Cheers, gotta make full use of my remaining holidays.

!ovid: Hello there :) I haven't sent you the pics of the photog outing! + your prize-winning shot haha. Hmm prob aft common test yeah? Remind me :D

Way back when we were just kids

2009-06-12T22:07:00.008+08:00

Wow. These few days were super tiring hahaha. Just back from CLEP camp. Learned quite a lot, laughed quite a lot as well. Great job to all the instructors, student leaders and teachers :) Great job to group 4 Nitrogen aka N2. Even though we didn't technically win anything, in our hearts we won quite a few times, every time when the rehearsals got better. :)

I think the skits were super funny. And I couldn't stop laughing at the DJ's talk/ sharing session. Overall it was great; I shouldn't compare it with BSP camp cos they're organised by diff people (I guess?).

Dragged myself out of bed today to get to Bugis on time. As usual manda was the earliest (omg sorry for making you wait there!) And we just walked around, settled on lunch at Folk Food with manda zy ft. The macaroni was nice! Overall quite ex. :( Hmm then nic came at like, 3+ and we went to watch movie. Ugh I wanted Night at the Museum 2! T_T But since manda and the rest wanted Drag Me To Hell, I agreed. Plus the idea of screaming tgt in the cinema sounded fun. Ended up I just laughed at the scary parts cos they're ridiculous man. Ahhhh but still I hope it doesn't haunt me leh. :(

Camwhored outside cinema room before the movie. Camwhored even more aft the movie at teadot. LOL nic really gets things going with her inborn talent. Pics another time, lazy to upload onto com and send. :) + I realise I have too little photos on facebook -.- Also, blog post pic another time cos I'm using Mac. :)

Okay, I'm done catching up on stuff like email + fb. :) Now to slack so I can start studying tmr.

kiwihead: haha thanks, hope your hols are going well :) Yeah I did scream I guess, but mine was more of silent screams. And nervous laughter. :) Sent y'all pics ytd alr, happy uploading + tagging on fb!

spyduh: Yeah! :) Love that feeling. :) Nicole kept scaring me by tugging on my sleeves, I thought she was the scary woman lah! -.- Hey I knew drummers rock long long time ago :D

Don't leave me on the edge

2009-06-05T16:11:00.005+08:00

Had a nervous breakdown sometime ago. :( But I feel touched after that. Thank you Dad, please take care of your health/anger.

Feels great, cut my hair today, but the hairdresser nearly pulled them all out. Felt like my hair was being torn apart :( But I've a new hairstyle, it just feels refreshing :)

Camera's well again :) Thank you Mum!

Anyway I'm happy I could finally go harmoc, and glad that photog is finally done with so I can concentrate on academic stuff. (Photog is part of my life for me but not at this time, there are limitations due to common test ugh) But on 4th I was very sure of my ambition of being a photojournalist :) Just feels great taking pics of features.

4th June was our last lesson with our 'famous' instructor Lin Junjie. :( LOL. We gave him a card :) Hope will still get to meet him during random photo-trips, haha! The session at Merlion was great, finally got to take photos on a tripod. And low exposure shots :) And Ovidia's winning shot. :) And the security guards at City Hall thinking I was a suicide bomber carrying all that equipment. :/

CLEP proj is done for the moment too! Until at least after CTs. But dunno how to postpone the Mac. I don't want another Mac disaster like the other time :/ LOL!

I've got CLL WS and econs article and GP common test and CLEP camp and PW and mug for common tests. I think I'm only left with one week for common tests.

And, too many things I hope that I can't type here.

Jiayou for Band concert! To whoever from DHSSB who's reading this. :)

And sorry for the really belated replies to tags:

wenyi: Haha thanks :)

nicole: LOL this is late but you won't do worse than me lah! :/

zt: Haha, you sound like Hera-something, the philosopher -.-

No, she doesn't care

2009-05-31T15:57:00.009+08:00

11.11.08 -I want another holiday like that

I seldom upload shots of myself, so you know how jumbled up/ nostalgic I'm feeling.

So. The holidays have started. Which means more mental torture for me struggling with all the stress.

Yesterday's harmoc concert was better than last year's. I'm happy that Harmoc is improving. The cheering didn't make me annoyed, surprisingly, but it made me happy, and kinda jealous of the VJ culture. Everyone's cheering for everyone else, even if they might not be popular. It doesn't matter. When there was a group or section performance, the cheerings were practically non-stop and would have continued if nobody had started playing.

I feel happy for Manda Gwen and WQ :) Really happy for them. Esp manda, she looks so happy in the group photos. I especially loved the Pirates of the Carribbean piece where them three wore special costumes :) Don't have the pic with me though, cam died. :( Van do you have it?

And the piece called Explosion by the Music Committee was great. One of my favourites which gave me goosebumps. :) Drummer was different, beats were different, but as usual, he was good. Drummers are good. :) (okay sweeping statement but whatever)

I think I didn't get to take pics with manda and gwen and wq. Oh man. Ended up taking group photos with those who went, LOL! :D

Before harmoc concert me van and ft met up at parkway to buy gifts for manda and gwen. Bought them two sunflowers and two mickey oreos :D LOL! I had a photo-frame to give WQ but didn't pass to manda in time! :(

Anyway, before that I was at dhs openhouse. The performances were great! Esp loved the dance one. (yes I crashed the PAC with XQ haha) CO gave me goosebumps with the suona! Omg I nearly cried I swear. Their passion is so evident! :') Live performances are so different from those CDs that play chinese traditional music, especially with DHS CO! Also got to watch symphonic band and the year 5 5-member band play :D Chaoyuan improved a lot I guess. Also watched the year 6 band (dunno what's the name) perform.

And before that, went to a seminar in NUS.

Funny how I blog in anti-chronological order. :)

I tried recovering those lost photos from my camera just now, nothing seems to be working.

I can accept the fact that all those photos were gone. But I just can't accept a life without my beloved camera. :'( Now I feel like giving up. Alright, I need a new SD / XD card.

Nine in the afternoon

2009-05-18T16:14:00.006+08:00

I just have to break my chain of photo series and post this one up. It's a comic strip I kupped eons ago from the comic website.

Anyway, I caught a cold. Terrible, esp when I have 3 friggin tests this week. (1 only known today. Wow.)

And I don't think I can go harmoc concert alr. Cos I'll be going alone. Which is 'o.O'. Amanda, Gwen and WQ I'm really sorry. I will still try to persuade van to go with me, but if not, really sorry :( JUNE YEAH? I PROMISSSE. We all promise. :) Someone's gotta help me to plan the outing. I'll be packed first two weeks. And subsequent weeks too, for common test but will try to squeeeeeeeeeze.

One day I'm gonna type in all the quotes I've collected over the last few months.

Okay, now I'm really back to work.

Replies!
wenyi: Haha nope it's alright. But I have another funny bump on my back now, which is really pain and I dunno what's wrong. :S Definitely not pimples, so I think it's some kind of chicken pox. o.O but it doesn't spread leh.
zt: Sigh. Yeah this day has come when it's dead like me. Didn't see you aft flag raising when I went to get my bag back. :( Anyway, how'd you know I'm still addicted to Sweet and Low? did I mention it somewhere in my blog post? Okay I think I did. :)

You don't know me, you don't even care

2009-05-16T12:57:00.005+08:00

10 things I'm thinking right now:

1. I might be an atheist next time. :O [triggered by my conversation with my Dad about religions, I shan't blog about it here else I'll get sued]
2. I don't understand what's so good about cosplay.
3. I absolutely dislike you being happy about smth like that.
4. I was elated 3 days ago, but could not blog about it due to time constraint.
5. Even as I'm blogging now, I feel time-deprived.
6. Handwriting analysis is coolios!
7. Passions are killed by repetition and responsibilities. :(
8. Sweet and Low is a fantastic song. :) I'm still not sick of it.
9. Besides that, River Flows in You is another song I can never get sick of, after tons of playing it on piano + watching on youtube + listening to it on my MP3 (L)
10. I'm contemplating if I should go Facebook now.

There. :) Ooh I have a mysterious wound on the back of my knee, it aches whenever I bend my leg. Sigh.

AND I HATE RESPONSIBILITIES, HAVE I EVER MENTIONED THAT? I think I'm very similar to Raju from The Guide. :(

I need to catch up on all my friends. WHO'S GOING FOR HARMOC? PLSPLSPLS TELL ME. I'm going to mass-email everyone. :)

Don't close your eyes or we'll fade

2009-05-08T20:58:00.006+08:00

RAHHHHHHHHH I just had an emo-ing session just now. I must learn to take things easy.

Lessons today were quite slack. In fact, I just realised there weren't any lessons at all today, except GP. Which speaking of GP, makes me sad. My summary is gone case cause I didn't follow the paragraph criteria. Smart. + AQ wasn't finished. GG liao.

I need to wake up.

Anyway, today CLL was rather talk crap + inspiring stuff by Mr Ong. :) And CSC became a documentary-watching session. I want to borrow the whole set! 8D Karmen wanna borrow tgt? :D Can swop or smth.

[edit]

Can I stop being so screwed up?

If I can't change anything, I'll live with it.

Btw, my MP3 healed. :D I'm tons happy. :)

Can you stay strong?

Can you go on?

Are you doing okay?

A rose that won't bloom

Winter's kept you

Don't waste your whole life trying

To get back what was taken away

Replies!

Amanda :D: Hello there! Yes I do rmb you! Yeah she is, and I don't know why. Okay lah, I like only two. :) Saw your cosplay costume, the skeleton one's really cool!

zt: Hahaha! You're observant man! :) Added it in, cause sometimes I blog using the other com and I don't have pictures in that com. Usually add it in later. Sometimes I just forget, or when I'm doing quizzes I don't put. :) LOL it's wearing shades! 8D

[/edit]

Only the truth

2009-05-05T11:58:00.005+08:00

Yay I finally survived a first-time public interview :D Unbelievable.

And yay I can blog on this com alr!

Didn't miss any lessons ytd, but darn I re-did 5 items even though I didn't fail a single item. Shouldn't have been so honest; maybe I didn't fail shuttle run after all, even after I fell down. Honesty kills everytime. I need a better policy. :(

Now I'm down with sore throat and flu. :( I NEED TO STOP GETTING SICK AND MISSING TESTS AND LESSONS. Gonna take my temp later to check if I have ~~swine flu~~ a fever. How! I've missed GP which is a practice of the Fri test. Argh.

I get scared when people call me.
Mug CLL, do CSC (3)

You'll take your time, but no one cares

2009-05-02T18:37:00.006+08:00

I don't feel like blogging today, but let's just say I feel accomplished and sat in a taxi 4 times.

Yet another quiz from I-no-longer-know-who.

A
- Available: -.-
- Age: 17 in 5 months 22 days. :D i wish i were 16 for a little longer.
- Animal: Bunny. Tiger.

B
- Beer: Disgusting. Alcohol usually is.
- Birthday: Do the math.
- Body Part on opposite sex: Eyes :D
- Best feeling in the world: Happiness.
- Blind or Deaf: Deaf. Can lip-read.
- Best weather: Drizzly rainy, chilly windy. :D
- Been in Love: Nope
- Been on stage: Yep
- Believe in Magic: Nope
- Believe in Santa: Used to

C
- Candy: Awesome! Who cares about the high sugar levels anyway? :D
- Colour: ORANGE, if you don't already know. :)
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate.
- Chinese/Mexican Food: Is there junk food? Chinese :)
- Continent/Country to visit: NEW ZEALAND/FRANCE, since it's country (L)

D- Day or Night: Day!
- Dancing in the rain: Cool, I wanna do it someday :D
- Do the splits: No way! It's way painful, I've tried it before. :(

E- Eggs: Great, but no raw yolk pleaaaaase.
- Eyes: Black.

F- First thoughts waking up: umm, nothing much, cause i'm usually in a daze.
G- Greatest Fear: Death. Heights. People leaving. Getting hurt.
- Goals: Definitely not football.
- Get along with your parents? Yes! I try to :D

H
- Hair Color: Black, the greatest hair colour anyone can possibly have. :D

I
- Ice Cream: Orange/lime popsicle :D Any kind actually. I really really wanna try Hagen Daaz. :)

J
- Job: Photojournalist, photographer, editor, copy writer.
K
- Kids: Dunno. Nice to take photos of, but rearing (pardon me i dunno which other word to use)?
- Keep a journal: Both blog and paper.

L- Longest car ride: Prob more than 10 hours.
- Laughed so hard you cried: Lots of times :D

M- Milk flavor: Chocolate!
- Movies: Lots! (see my profile)
- Motion sickness: Probably seasick.
- McD’s or BK: macs PWNS. :D

N
- Number of siblings: 1

O
- Overused phrases: dunno? probably LOL.
- One Phobia: Acrophobia. :(

P- Place you'd like to live: VENICE/VIENNA, or any countryside with great air and scenery and nature and waters. :)
- Pepsi/Coke: Pepsi!
- Perfect Pizza: any kind! Meaty and cheesy and hammy. :)
- Piercings: None and never any.

Q
- Quail: Eggs are nice, high in cholesterol? hahaha. This is freaking random. Bet you just wanted to fit the Q in.

R
- Reason to cry: Anything that I can't control and which is unjustifiable, moodswings, PMSes.
- Reality T.V.: PROJECT RUNWAY. I need to watch. :(
- Radio Station: 91.3, 98.0, 98.7
- Roll your tongue in a circle: I can!
- Ring size: Dunno.

S
- Song: Come onn, check out the singers I like! You'll probably faint. Now I have The Script newly added. Just to name a few whom I like all the songs of: Jimmy Eat World, Jason Mraz, Colbie Caillat, The Kooks, Daphne Loves Derby, Taylor Swift
- Shoe size: Dunno.
- Salad Dressing: Yuck I hate salad.
- Sushi: Crabmeat sushi. Just had it today. :)
- Skipped School: Yep
- Slept outside: Yep, chalet, camps. I want sleepovers!
- Sing In the shower?: Yep, used to. Now I'm just too bushed.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Blueberries? i don't like the seeds in strawberries. In flavours, both are nice :)

T
- Tattoos?: NO WAY KILL ME FIRST.
- Time for bed: 11 is perfect.
- Thunderstorms: Remind me of childhood.
- Touch your tongue to your nose?: Nope.

U
- Unpredictable: Yeah haven't you heard of the idiom that says a girl's mood is like the weather? Especially April weather in Singapore, bleh.

V
- Vacation Spot: Paris, any place with lots of nice scenery and clean air and romanticness.

W
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: None I guess? All my friends are quite different from me :) come on lah, everyone is different.
- Who makes you laugh the most?: VAN AND ZT TGT! Oh gosh library + MRT mugging madness LOL!
- Worst feeling: Emotional, dread, hopelessness.
- Wanted to be a model: Nope. Okay, maybe yes, self-denial.
- Worst Weather?: Minus 0, absolute 0, whatever.

X-
X-Rays: Can cure sprains in the short term, I swear.

Comes before gamma rays in terms of wavelength

Y
-Year it is now: 2009.
-Yellow: by Coldplay! (L)

Z
- Zoo animal: Flamingoes.
- Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

2009-05-01T15:31:00.007+08:00

Long time no post, loads of things to do. Gonna research for CSC essay, still owe 2 essays + 1 CSC hw. And I have to copy 4 more stacks of CLL notes. But econs is kinda done :) 2 down, infinity to go! I'm cooped up at home today to study for CLL test. And I'm feeling really sick.

The stress aside,

HAPPY BE-EARLIED BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED SISTER YUKITERU!

HAHAHA. :) I needa go find her present.

The week has zoomed past. I need to survive the next. And the next.

HUNGRY HUNGRY.
I'LL EAT. I'LL GORGE. I DON'T CARE.

CLL INTERVIEW, JIAYOU!

OMG IT'S FREAKING 34 DEGREES CELSIUS OUTSIDE. Heng I'm not out.

I'll be back to research CSC. Tata!

2009-05-01T14:32:00.004+08:00

Quiz adapted from Jing Qi.

The shoes you wore today: Dust-shoe, if there's such a thing.
Your weaknesses: Too erratic and weird, gets tongue-tied, no common sense, (the list is non-exhaustive LOL GP)
Your fear(s): Death, separation, cockroaches, superficiality
Your perfect guy: None
You wish: for happiness and perfection, for no hunger and war
Your best physical feature: None
Your bedtime: ranges from 10.30pm-1am, no later, no earlier
Missing someone: More like missing smth - the past

This Or That…
Pepsi or Coke? Pepsi! Less CO2 haha.
McDonald’s or Burger King: MACS FTW! :D I prefer KFC actually. :)
Adidas or Nike: Adidas :D
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: I don't drink tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate :D
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino, but I don't take coffee. OMG BUT ICED CAPPUCCINO partial (L)

Do You…
Smoke: NO WAY.
Take drugs: Yeah when I'm sick?
Sing: Only on rare singing encounters with my friends
Dance: Can't dance to save my life :(
Take a shower everyday: Duh! It's 32 degree Celsius all year round!
Have a crush: Nope
Do you think you’ve been in love?: No, if yes everybody would have.
Want to go to college: No, if I had the choice
Like(d) high school: Dunno what's the equivalent but yes if it was last year :)
Want to get married: No.
Get motion sickness: Rarely unless I go up Cameron Highlands, or seasick at east coast HAHHA.
Think you’re attractive: No.
Think you’re a health freak: No, I spam junk food. :D
Get along with your parents: I suppose so.

(skipped the 'In the past month' section 'cause it's the first day of May xD

Age you hope to be married: NIL HAHA.
Numbers of Children: NIL!
Describe your Dream Wedding: Unique, outdoors preferably (nature), anywhere actually. I want to take my own wedding photo. LOL that'll be real imba.
What country would you most like to visit?: NEW ZEALAND/FRANCE(PARIS)/VENICE/VIENNA

In the opposite sex..
Best eye color?: Black
Best hair color?: Black
Short hair or long hair?: Short
Height: Doesn't matter

Number of people I could trust with my life: 7
Number of CDs that I own: Can't count, prob 5? I want English albums :(
Number of tattoos: ZILCH
Number of piercings: 0

Who were you with yesterday? CLL chaguan ppl and Econs groupmates and Ms Devi and Wang laoshi. HAHA :)
What woke you up this morning? Phone alarm.
Where are you? Home sweet home :D
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? I hope so :)
Do you like anybody? Nope

Ever thrown up in public? Loads of times, after 2.4
Passed out because of alcohol? No -.-
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? That I shouldn't be doing this quiz.

THE FUTURE-
What kind of home would you like? That house in Toa Payoh, cottage by countryside, big family full of warmth, semi-D/bungalow with a garden and backyard :(
What do you want to be when you grow up? Editor, photographer, photojournalist (L)
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Working in my dream job, hopefully

IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces? Prob yes. LOL I want necklaces shaped like candy -.- OMG ORANGE SQUARE ONES. :)
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? Dunno
Do you listen to music every day? Not daily, but probably 5 times a week.
Do you still go trick or treating? No :( I want!
What was the last thing you ate? Porridge for lunch.
Are you a fast typer? 90+ WPM.
Whats your favorite type of soda? Baking soda, LOL kidding.
Have you ever moved? Been kickin' in my Mom's womb since the age of zero. (okay lah I've moved house thrice from Tembeling to Telok Kurau to Onan Road to Onan Road HAHA)
Have you ever won an award? Loads of awards in Primary School, miss the good ol' days :(
Are you listening to music right now? Nope but I have my earphones plugged in -.-
How long ’till your birthday? 5 months 23 days.
When were you the saddest in your whole life? Sec 2
What time is it? 3:25PM. Don't you have a clock?
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? Nope no credit cards :(
Who makes you mad? HAHA no one I hope.
Have you ever heard a song written about you? No, not even Hey Juliet or Hey Stephen or Mary's Song or Dear Maria, count me in or The Diary of Jane or Stacy's Mom or Hey There Delilah or Check Yes Juliet, which all have names inside ):
Something you want to happen in 2009? Good grades good health, duh.
Summer 2009?: 24/7, 365
Honestly, do you miss 2008? Yes. Very much.

ANGER SECTION
1. What do you do when you’re mad? Bottle it up and explode later. Jump. Voice trembles. Rant on blog. Write in journal. Tear stuff up.
2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? Swore? Or hurt someone with my words I suppose. :(
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Nope not that bad. Okay maybe myself -.-
4. Do you swear when you’re mad? Yes but rarely.

CRYING SECTION
1.When was the last time you actually cried? A few nights ago?
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? ):
3. Do certain songs make you cry? Yes, when i'm feeling really down.
4. What usually makes you cry? Certain encounters/ happenings that I can't control. (reminds me of the 90/10 theory)

2009-04-21T18:50:00.006+08:00

Happy 600th post to my blog! :D Sorry for not rmbing your birthday, but at least I commemorate your post numbers :D

A big thank you to all who have cheered me on ytd during 2.4 :D Love you all! Esp Linghong, Yilin, Huiyi, Karmen, Clara, Tzuhsiang, Hannah :D Thanks for being there when I was really uber sick omg. I can't believe I survived :) Omg poor Jesmine I hope she's okay :(

Urgh I hate rushing for deadlines and not making the cut for photog competitions. Heck. I have so many photos to submit, not that I'll win, but at least submitting is like got hope mah. :( Now all my hopes are dashed because it ain't 3000 pixels. DSLR, byebye.

1. Just making a list isn't enough. So why do I still do it?

2. All those lost hopes, I don't really care anymore.

3. At least you didn't say my work was crap. That's more than enough. :) I'll work hard from now on. I hope I don't let anyone or myself down.

And now, the wait begins. Then the chiong. :( I need the energy for tmr, as well as today night. I will pull through.

wenyi: Huh what you mean? LOL when?

zt: Heyo mayo! I know you're waiting for mass PE right! Haha coolios, you can chill out there every Mon :) How was 2.4/5 items?

[edit on 22.4]

I have a deteriorated sprained ankle from 3 years ago due to 2.4, now that's really sad. I have to limp every day from now on but I can't do anything about it! Going to the doctor for that is kinda dumb. I think there's no proper treatment for a 3-year-old sprain D:

JC passes so fast. It just zooms. It's end of April, I can't believe it. Too little time!

Oh, anyone who has Chinese foolscap paper that you want to throw away 'cause you're no longer taking Chinese, please feel free to donate to me :D You can pass it to me in sch, thank you so much! ;)

I'm loving everything that you hate

So do I hate you?

I dunno.

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Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

2009-04-19T13:27:00.006+08:00

Quiz to help me relax:

Type down your reactions when someone says these phrases to you.

1) WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
You can't change me anyway :)

2) I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU
That's a bit slow :) But thank you anyway! Love you too!

3) LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY! YOU'LL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME.
I'm happy without anyone. :D

4) COME ON. SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO!
But i waste how many muscles lah!

5) PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO!
Okay if you really wanna fail.

6) WTF YOU THINK I'M SO FREE IS IT?!
No lah you free and easy, happy?

7) I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
:) Aww that's so shweet! I feel blessed too!

8) WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
Go ask your kindergarten teacher :D

9) I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
Yes ZOMG that's like cool!

10) YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
No I didn't :D

11) I THINK I'M FALLING FOR YOU.
(thinks of the funny joke someone told me) LOL!

12) I CAN'T SMILE WITHOUT YOU.
That sounds utterly familiar, some ad song right! LOL.

13) THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST AREN'T HIM/HER.
Welcome! I know I'm just me, you don't have to tell me that alr. :D

14) NOTHING!
-.- (feels sad and inferiority complex shows up HAHAHA)

15) WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
Ain't it on some list alr? (omg cute tree joke!)

16) CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
What song what song? HSM -.- zomg

17) MAY I ESCORT YOU?
Sure.

18) DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TILL NOW?
*speechless*

19) YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I
WANTED
What song is that? Oh by avril lavigne right. -.-

20) WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET EYES?
My eyes ain't sweet. And I won't allow you to gorge them out, you eerie person!

What a crappy quiz, most of the things nobody will say one lah! :(

Bleh, the week just zoomed past with loads of projects and hw. Piano-playing sessions! Dialogue session. I wanted to complain about the missing buses cause they were too crowded and being late issue, and about detention. But only thought of it aft the session. :(

Ytd was Red Cliff talk. I was starving in the LT :( Plus it overran, the speaker didn't know how to manage her time well! Missed out the most impt part of the speech. Wth. She's really pro anyway, to rmb so many things. :O

I figured out 安静了by S.H.E. on piano! ZOMG (L) Thanks to huiyi's chords which were for another song hahaha! Please please go make an album next time okay! You'll really make it big :D

Song games are fun, sigh I wanna play again! If only I could sing. :(

Tata, GP journals and CSC test to chiong :D

Replies!

xiuli: Haha yeah my dad got one but I don't really use it cause my links are all in the current old com.

van: Hi Chialichia! :D

spyduh: Yep of course i'll go :)

wenyi: HAHAHA YEAH. Accidentally set some cookie settings and blogger is against cookies. Why lor, cookies are nice. :) Chocolate-chips ones, yum.

kiwihead: Commented on your blog alr. Hmm I want a full outing before the concert :(

You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter

2009-04-12T16:45:00.005+08:00

Update of these few days:

Career day was exhausting. I lugged the DSLR around to take photo of Mr Sng and the GOH and speakers for the talks I chose for the whole day. Was really terrible esp at the career exhibitions, had to collect a lot of brochures and freebies lol! + the camera was really taking a toll on me. But ohwell, trained me quite a lot.

Went out to Parkway to have dinner at Swensen's. And I swear I'm not going there ever again. I had stomach flu after eating the Chilli fish spaghetti there. Wasn't the first time I ate though. Must be 'cause I ate on an empty stomach?

Fell terribly sick on Friday. First thing at 12am I got up to vomit. Subsequently added up to 4 times :( Which means I fasted from 11am the previous day till 1pm on Friday. Which is sad. But I'm better now :)

I wasted the whole of Good Friday, which technically wasn't good for me. Drifted in and out of sleep, sweated cold sweat, fever + headache + muscle ache. The doc even thought I had dengue. (or maybe I have?) Stuck on Facebook for the whole of Sat. So I'm supposed to chiong all my hw now, which I'm still not doing. :(

This keyboard is so hard to type. It has Arabic btw. LOL.

I really must think twice before processing what people have to tell me. Filter. :(

P.S. I can't blog on the new com! :(

So she said what's the problem baby?

2009-04-07T17:47:00.004+08:00

Going off in awhile cause my sis needs the com for project. Long weekends are for rushing work. :( Defeats the purpose. I mean, even the working class can go out Friday night for a drink or two. :(

~~EDITING THIS LATER CAUSE I PROCRASTINATED AND FORGOT TO CONTINUE POSTING AND NOW MY SIS WANTS TO USE, LOL. We really need another com. :(~~

[edit]

~~Picture another day/com! No pics with me right now.~~

And I dunno if Thurs is gonna be a waste of time, cause the careers I chose are ideal for fun but not as a job, except SPH. Argh I hate thinking of my future job. Starting to realise I can't fit into any category. And really afraid I won't make the cut. Actually I shouldn't be stressing on this kinda stuff at this time. Maybe cause I just had an interview :S

Oh boy the new com's ready to use :D But the keyboard's still hard to type cause of the stickers urgh. And mousie's scroll is screwed :(

Wait. I just realised all the bookmarks in the other com can't be transferred. It's like, all my entertainment links and readings for CSC Econs and whatnot. Rah!

I REALLY WANNA GO OUT LEH. Go out as in outings. Not to-school-or-to-provision-shop-kind of going out. FANGTING I MIGHT WANT TO GO HARMONICA CONCERT again :D This time I will buy stuff for manda gwen and wq LOL

I'm figuring out Untitled by Simple Plan on piano. :)

PE tmr, I'm still exhausted from the run on Monday. Couldn't study much for econs, plus I rushed out GP essay for nothing. Talk about suayness. + there was math test which I screwed.

:( [/edit]

Replies!
xiuli: Yeah you just dc-ed suddenly the other day -.-
kiwihead: Haha it's fine, thank you :D It should be great for you right, cause you're smiling :) Don't feel that life's screwed lah. I'm kinda slacking now, chionging hw tmr :D

Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even

2009-04-05T23:01:00.006+08:00

CIP today fun fun fun! LOL made me see the better part of humans. Compassion and kindness :) And it made me realise I really wanna work teaching children next time. Prob as voluntary work? Dunno lah.

I wish all CIPs in the future can be like this. On the way home the bus ride was so relaxing, and I realised the richrich houses in Toa Payoh are freaking big. I think I saw my dream house O:

MONDAY BLUES SETTING IN. Plus hw and tests to be done.

Mon: ECONS TEST + GP ESSAY + Publ interview + return DSLR
Tue-Fri: Copy notes 5 times + csc essay + loads of other hw + csc research

Lugging something heavy to sch tmr. Ohwell but the above 55mm was superb :D Took photos I've never taken before with a digital cam. :)

Passing through unconscious states
When I awoke
I was on the high(way)

Crimson and clover, over and over

2009-04-04T14:23:00.006+08:00

Just a short post here, rushing off for independent math. :( And econs. And GP essay. Then, I think I'm done. Have to copy 5 sets of notes which are 5-7 pages each. :( And I'm gonna owe a CSC essay, don't care lah.

Was awoken with the best wake up call at 7am this morn. PWNAGE. :( I'm truly, absolutely disgusted.

Wheeeeeeee I love DSLRs. Wish it was lighter :) So I don't have to die lugging it back to sch. And it's kinda tiring taking pics from the top (such as flowers etc), I just realised.

LOL, April fools' was nothing special for me, except maybe the very nice prank we played on Ms/Mdm Alicia Ng. :) Sho sweet lah liren 'proposed' to her, LOL. With a ring-cup (I think the class bought). Plus the balloon matched her dress colour that day too! :)

Hmm I forgot what I wanted to post. Ah well. School's busy as ever, with workload impossible to complete and I keep putting things off due to my lousy prioritising skills/ time management, I don't know which. :(

MASS PHOTOTAKING OF BOKEH LIGHTS LATER. I hope I can do it. :)

There has been a lack of smileys such as :D.
I don't know why.

I love meeting friends in school in the circular garden. :D

I love Jimmy Eat World :D

I'm trying to stay cheerful. :D
There.

And why'm I here?

P.S. Listen to my playlist for a little while more, and you'll find surprises.

wenyi: Yep saw it ages ago on my friend's profile :D
xiuli: Go away you video-stealer! :) And yes it was hell, I decided. Why you dump me online?! Hurmph now I can't talk to you.

To all the lost friendships

2009-03-28T18:38:00.009+08:00

Oh gosh I just saw Zijia's email and am damn touched I dunno why. Esp when Mr Sng handed him the book made by fellow students :) Makes me feel the dhs spirit or whatever, but it's a good thing definitely.

These few days were hell/heaven, I can't decide. Fell really sick on Tuesday night/Wednesday, so I missed SHSC Investiture :( I wanna watch the videos so much! [edit: Okay I saw the vids on Olivia's profile hahaha awesomeee) But here's smth I wanna say: THANK YOU TEAM C OF PHOTOG CLUB FOR HELPING US (TEAM B) TO TAKE THE PICS :) I know it's really tough so thank you so much! And thank you Jiajia, was hard on you to solo the gallery group photos. I won't pangseh you ever again :( ~~We're sorry we couldn't make it, and sorry if it's too last min :(~~ [edit: Sorry I couldn't make it, blah]

~~Now I wonder what event we'll cover next.~~

Also, Tuesday absolutely killed me, 3 tests and returned truckloads of other tests which I got borderline marks. :( I was just dying of headache and fatigue by the time it got to Econs test. Needless to say I was already a zombie by Math. Blah, I shan't think about that.

Then for the next 3 days, I just didn't touch anything. I had a phobia of work, so I just sat and watched TV the whole night. That's what chionging CSC essay + test + Econs test till 1am did to me.

Anyway, just found out this absolutely fabulous person and she's called Clare Boothe Luce. Super talented lah! Clare Boothe Luce (April 10, 1903, New York City – October 9, 1987, Washington D.C.) was an American playwright, editor, journalist, ambassador, socialite and one of the first women ever in the U.S. Congress, representing the state of Connecticut. She has done like 3 of my dream jobs :) Plus I think, she's a feminist. HAHA.

Some quotes from her:
- Love is a verb.
- A woman's best protection is a little money of her own.
- A man has only one escape from his old self: to see a different self in the mirror of some woman's eyes.
- Censorship, like charity, should begin at home, but, unlike charity, it should end there.
- In politics women type the letters, lick the stamps, distribute the pamphlets and get out the vote. Men get elected.
- Money can't buy happiness, but it can make you awfully comfortable while you're being miserable.

Replies!

xiuli: OMG LOL you v lame leh. Scared me :P

wenyi: HAHA K I shall go see :D On facebook or blog?

I don't. wanna. blog. about. this. But I'm glad I didn't lose anything, nor gain anything from you. I'll bet you're just disappointed, but I'm not. So glad I didn't _____. :) I'm not like other ___s. I realised you're just a jinx a long time ago.

2009-03-27T16:18:00.002+08:00

QUIZZY!

This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS. Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random it is, just type it!

Repost it for all of your (bored) friends. Consider yourself tagged if you are reading this!

[Warning: This is gonna be REAL RANDOM YAY]
1. Beer: Mug
2. Food: Fishballs, LOL
3. Relationships: Penmanship?
4. Your CRUSH: David XXIIIIIII aka Deedums (inside joke)
5. Power Rangers: K1/2 class bonding pastime :D
6. Life: Euthanasia (sorry this is due to GP)
7. The President: Obama! Just rcved a chain mail about him and I fwded :P
8. Yummy: Mummy/gummi
9. Cars: Umm that movie we saw during guides looooong ago
10. Movies: Hotdog and nachos, YUMMM :D
11. Halloween: Pumpkinface :D
12. Sex: Confused with love?
13. Religion: 儒、释、道. CSCCCCC HAHAHA.
14. Hate: is a strong word
15. Fear: You take my hand and drag me head first, fearless :DDDDD
16. Marriage: the grave of love?
17. Blondes: Jokes :D
18. Slippers: Clogs. Red ones.
19. Shoes: My copper heels which I never wore.
20. Asians: Nigahiga, LOL.
21. Past time: Guitar/piano :D
22. One night stand: ONS/ONZ HAHAHA.
23. My cell phone: ROCKS :)
24. Smoke: Absolutely disgusting
25. Fantasy: Rainbows and butterflies
26. College: Busywusy
27. High school life: I miss it. Or am I in high school now aiyah dunno.
28. Pajamas: B1 and B2
29. Stars: The poem I wrote, LOL
30. Center: of Attention -.-
31. Alcohol: Red wine HAHA.
32. The word love: Overrated
33. Friends: The TV series
34. Money: Face = Ah Leong :D
35. Heartache: Unbearable
36. Time: The cute emoticon I used to have.
37. Divorce: -_-
38. Dogs: are scary :( Esp the poodle kind which barks and chases you around (I got chased before argh)
39. Undies: Bras
40. Parents: Rock :) They really make loads of sacrifices for us, so I love my Dad & Mum :D
41. Babies: are cute, and nice to take photos of :D
42. Ex: Exponential. O_O
43. Song: Love Story
44. Color: ORANGE
5. Weddings: Ms Tiong's at St Andrew's Cathedral, which is a fabulous place :D
46. Pizza: 241 :D and Pizza Hut spaghetti!
47. Hangout: Monkeybars
48. Rest: I NEED IT
49. Goal: To enjoy life even when I'm working
50. Inspiration: Ideas, PW -.-

2009-03-22T16:59:00.005+08:00

UBER BUSY. To the max. But at least got to go out with my family ytd :) OMG Funan food court rocks :) Love the ambience wheeee especially no one else is around (except for two couples ahem).

Went to take pics of the Stamford Raffles statue for photog -.- The weather was so superb, drizzly rainy :D Passed by vch on the way to Boat Quay, and saw people handing out balloons. Bleh orange ones were all taken :( Anyway omg I love Boat Quay gonna work there (heard there are jobs nearby such as advertising companies :D) Really romantic place :D

Okay so my family is uber funny and crappy hahaha.

On a sidenote,
Let me list out the stuff I have to do by next week.
Today: STUDY MATH AND CSC
Mon: Chiong CSC essay, complete econs notes
Tues: Do Chi compre and shouzha
Wed: Study econs!
Thurs: Study CSC?
Fri: Prob some last-min hw that I still don't know now and PWPWPPWWPW OMG.

BLEH. X(

Btw met manda online at 1am, LOL. I realise my efficiency is at its highest point from 10-1, zomg. Crazy right.

wenyi: Thanks! :)

She stopped running months ago

2009-03-18T21:51:00.008+08:00

ARGH I'M SICK WTHWTHWTHWTHWTH AND I'M SUPER FRUSTRATED. SO MANY THINGS TO DOOOOOOO WHAT THE HELL ARE THE HOLIDAYS FOR. I'm just one step away from ranting with expletives here. I shall curb it.

Can the stupid hiccups just go away? And I keep feeling hot and cold, sneezing non-stop, and getting hungry all the time. I just hope I don't collapse by the end of the holidays. How ironic.

I love the title of xh's CLEP project: 假期还是“假”期？:)/:( Sigh.

Most likely won't be back again till Sat when I send the pics for my photog assignment + competition.

Alright I must be optimistic man. So proud of myself did econs and denggao today. I must jiayou! Highway all the wayyyyyyy :D

P.S. I hate receiving stupid emails regarding hw and weird quizzes (e.g. CLEP文学普查. what the?)

EDIT: GOD BLESS ALL CSC STUDENTS HOOORAY. ONE MORE PIECE OF ESSAY TO ADD TO THE 3 TESTS, 5 CLL HW AND MORE! YAY I'M SO GONNA CELEBRATE WITH CHAMPAGNE. ONLY 4 DAYS MORE, YOU MUST BE KIDDING. THANKYOU SO VERY MUCH FOR THIS LATE NOTICE. THANK YOU MAN.

Do you really think we can complete all this stuff we're being thrown at? If so, we're really being overestimated. Are holidays meant for all these? We're not Superman. I'm not exaggerating. CLL alone, one subject, 3 essays, 2 pieces of freestyle writing, one comprehension. 3 tests. And one last minute ESSAY. I'd better scoot now, else I'm dead.

Belated Replies!

wenyi: Thanks! Rainbows are the love (L)!

kiwihead: LOL NO LAH I haven't mastered the piece yet. Only amateur playing. :) The middle part I'm a little confused, will needa prac somemore :)

spyduh: YEAH I MISS YOU! Can't even celebrate your bday with you :( So sorry! You know, I don't even have a life now! Stupid holidays. :(

xiuli: Hihi! No of course not! The macbooks are really chio and nice to use :)

zt: HELLOWY I MISS YOU :( Thanks! Heh you're replying to tags on my tagboard :P What's wrong with the highway though? That's like the best part of the song! Hurmph. :D

2009-03-16T22:39:00.004+08:00

Just a quick/short post here.

Absolutely annoyed with you, tyvm.

+ gonna ~~waste~~ spend a whole day in the com lab interacting with our lovely & chio macbooks. :D [half-sarcastic]

I JUST WANNA GET EVERYTHING DONE BUT I'M STUCK. Physics, you rock. You taught me the definition of inertia, which is exactly what I'm facing now. Not like you really rock, but nvm.

&, I realise I really learn a lot every day, based on what people speak. There really are so many different types of people in this world. Unbelievable.

2009-03-13T21:12:00.007+08:00

I'm super happy cause I learnt the chords and melody of River Flows in You without scores in just 30 mins :) Thank you Huiyi! :) Wanted to stay longer but couldn't argh :( Will practice often even though I'm only left with 3 days to study for 3 tests + 5 CLL hw + many more hw from other subjects + publications designing.

Song dedications are funfunfun! Makes recess/ free periods much more enjoyable. Only thing is, we were sitting too close to the speakers. :( Btw my love for potato salad is rekindled! :)

Learnt loads more stuff during PW today due to zm's enlightenment (after the class left for ISD) -.- I was kinda shocked. D: Not to mention Ms Devi's constant reminders of sources and stuff, HAHA.

OMG couldn't go home with zt today :( Super sad WE NEEDA GO OUT! :(

Argh who the heck invented vacation/school holidays anyway. It's all a big fat fabricated lie. I'D RATHER NOT HAVE HOLS THANKYOU V MUCH. Just give me more weekends please, anytime.

Btw I can't stand those Channel 8 Dramas. Haha an extreme change from two years ago.

And now we all know
The words were true
In the sappiest songs
Yes, yes

23 seconds, in you I see a chance

2009-03-12T10:52:00.006+08:00

I'm officially sick. Flu, splitting headache, gastric. ARGH. I'm missing the outing, WTHWTHWTH. I hope have chance to go zm's house next time leh :( IT'S IN TELOK KURAU = MY OLD HOUSE THERE :(

On a sidenote, I realise I learn so many things in school every day. Not just from the lectures and tutorials, but more from people's conversations. I really shouldn't just take my life for granted. I must make full use of my time and what I have every day :D In econs, supply and resources. -.-

Photog was okay. I can't believe I forgot to send Mr Lin my pics! :( Thankfully he gave me comments still :D Woah really can learn a lot from him leh. He takes really great pics. So much better than those 'very nice' comments on flickr. -.-

I WNA GO 85 TELOK KURAU SOMEDAY. And the lovely park :D Anyone knows how to go? Prob alight at kembangan or smth. -.-

2009-03-11T19:21:00.004+08:00

HW AND TESTS BOMBED ME THANKYOU VERY MUCH!

I'm so stressed out so I shall do a quiz to relax.

Copy From here down and fill it out and repost! Its funny what you get!

Dear Jiajia,

I don't really know how to tell you this, I’m joining the Convent. I think I realized it when we skinny dipped in the bathtub at the mental hospital and I saw you sit on my corned beef hash. I'm sure you're middle-class enough to understand that I'm allergic to your earlobes. I'm returning your toe ring to you, but I'll keep your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I hate your cooking and you ruined my attempts at another world war.

Love always,
Me

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black - Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're mean
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When you smacked my ass
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Lasagna- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 CD
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
None – My prized statue of Michael Jackson in the nude
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Sexy
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Silly - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the mustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbour’s dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your suicide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Hate your cooking
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Will tell the authorities that you did not steal that whale in the back yard
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Was interviewed about the car you stole
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my ass as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself

2009-03-10T17:52:00.004+08:00

(points to picture) I'm starting a new photo series on this, so keep your eyes peeled ^^

OMG I'M SO RELIEVED. Feels like a huge load has just been lifted. (:

Falala. I still have econs and GP journal but heck lah. Can do it tmr and thurs. So now for some random stuff.

Collection of geek love quotes:

"I'll be your guardian angle if you'll subtend me."
"I was just a scalar till you came along and gave me direction."
"I don't want to be your asymptote. I want to be your intercept."
"You were my asymptote, but now we intersect."

LOL sorry this is what you'll get from me after a few weeks' of pure torture. (Temporary) FREEEDOM!

I'm not gonna care how much my hard work doesn't pay off. From now on, if I've tried my best, I'm done. :) Photog course tmr! :) Thurs class outing! Fri publications election!

Another funny excerpt from somewhere:

Why did the chicken cross the road?

KINDERGARTEN TEACHER: To get to the other side.

PLATO: For the greater good of man.

ARISTOTLE: It is the nature of chickens to cross roads.

KARL MARX: It was a historical inevitability.

TIMOTHY LEARY: Because that's the only trip the establishment would let it take.

OSAMA BIN LADEN: That chicken knew nothing of its mission (ha ha ha) only that it would be a martyr.

SADDAM HUSSEIN: This was an unprovoked act of rebellion and we were quite justified in dropping 50 tons of nerve gas on it.

RONALD REAGAN: I forget.

CAPTAIN JAMES T. KIRK: To boldly go where no chicken has gone before.

HIPPOCRATES: Because of an excess of phlegm in its pancreas.

ANDERSEN CONSULTING: Deregulation of the chicken's side of the road was threatening its dominant market position. The chicken was faced with significant challenges to create and develop the competencies required for the newly competitive market. Andersen Consulting, in a partnering relationship with the client, helped the chicken by rethinking its physical distribution strategy and implementation processes. Using the Poultry Integration Model (PIM), Andersen helped the chicken use its skills, methodologies, knowledge, capital and experiences to align the chicken's people, processes and technology in support of its overall strategy within a Program Management framework. Andersen Consulting convened a diverse cross-spectrum of road analysts and best chickens along with Anderson consultants with deep skills in the transportation industry to engage in a two-day itinerary of meetings in order to leverage their personal knowledge capital, both tacit and explicit, and to enable them to synergize with each other in order to achieve the implicit goals of delivering and uccessfully architecting and implementing an enterprise-wide value framework across the continuum of poultry cross-median processes.The meeting was held in a park-like setting, enabling and creating an impactful environment which was strategically based, industry focused, and built upon a consistent, clear, and unified market message and aligned with the chicken's mission, vision, and core values. This was conducive towards the creation of a total business.

LOUIS FARRAKHAN: The road, you see, represents the black man. The chicken 'crossed' the black man in order to trample him and keep him down.

MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.: I envision a world where all chickens will be free to cross roads without having their motives called into question.

MOSES: And God came down from the Heavens, and He said unto the chicken, "Thou shalt cross the road." And the chicken crossed the road, and there was much rejoicing.

FOX MULDER: You saw it cross the road with your own eyes. How many more chickens have to cross the road before you believe it?

RICHARD M. NIXON: The chicken did not cross the road. I repeat, the chicken did NOT cross the road.

MACHIAVELLI: The point is that the chicken crossed the road. Who cares why? The end of crossing the road justifies whatever motive there was.

JERRY SEINFELD: Why does anyone cross a road? I mean, why doesn't anyone ever think to ask, What the heck was this chicken doing walking around all over the place, anyway?"

FREUD: The fact that you are at all concerned that the chicken crossed the road reveals your underlying sexual insecurity.

BILL GATES: I have just released the new Chicken Office 2000, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook.

OLIVER STONE: The question is not, "Why did the chicken cross the road?" Rather, it is, "Who was crossing the road at the same time, whom we overlooked in our haste to observe the chicken crossing?"

CHARLES DARWIN: Chickens, over great periods of time, have been naturally selected in such a way that they are now genetically disposed to cross roads.

I shall try to post jokes every day :) I must stay happy!

2009-03-02T22:14:00.007+08:00

From my bedroom. Look closely where the plane is and find the rainbow (:

From the balcony :D

I'M IN LOVE WHEEEE (with the rainbow)

[edit on 06.03]

Correction. My CSC is dead/failed/screwed. See how much work has gone down the drain. I bet my dad's real disappointed too. :( Argh I shall work hard!

GP journals to be done by TODAY. Tmr shall chiong econs journals, econs test and CSC essay! JIAYOU I CAN DO IT.

Anyway I've added rainbow pics at the top if you haven't alr realised! :D To brighten up your day if you've had a bad Friday like me.

Replies!

j: uhh not exactly haha. just a sound lah -.- who are you btw?

kiwihead: OMG so cool! I think I saw a photo like that before leh. :D I just love rainbows lah! Thanks for tagging!

[/edit]

I ought to be packing my stuff for tmr. But.

I feel like a failure cause everything I do seems to go wrong. Tests don't turn out well, homework get weird remarks which proves that my skills are lousy, etc. My math test is dead. Mix it up with more tests and hw and project work coming our way. I wonder what's with the routine. Actually deep down I know. 2 years later.

Sometimes it looks alright but everything manages to turn out wrong in the end. Hail Murphy's law.

I saw a rainbow 2 days in a row, ytd and today. I'm kinda happy cause I haven't seen one in 10 years. So I guess that kinda helps. Was really really really ecstatic and screaming all over the house, could you believe it? Haha. Okay at first I rmb when van told me she saw a rainbow with daph in her car, I felt so jealous! Now I'm contented. :)

I think I live to take photos. That's how much my passion for photography is. :) So if anyone criticises my CCA. Don't even try.

2009-03-01T12:16:00.004+08:00

OMGGGGGGGG, THE HORROR.

I might have to do an endoscopy test soon ARGHHH! Wth! I can't imagine having a tube in my throat all the way to my stomach! OMG ever since like 10 years ago when I had asthma, I have a phobia of having things through my throat :(

HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW.

Okay lemme list the stuffs i have to do today.

1. GP JOURNALS (at least 2)
Pwned.
2. Urm, loads of other stuff that I'm lazy to list out.

I'm very unsettled now.

xiuli: They're both food thieves! :( Eh and how you know I'm slower than WY leh! I type quite fast one hor! Eh really the police super fierce. Tell you next time. :(
wenyi: -.- pfft. Go buy go buy! If I tell my mum that she'll kill me hahaha.

2009-02-27T19:56:00.006+08:00

Okay, here's a confession:

I absolutely cannot stop laughing about the Flipino and Supply jokes, now that I think about it.
:D
But a lot of ppl don't think they're funny leh! :(

I survived 3 periods of CLL and 3 periods of CSC!

And I still have to chiong so many stuffs during weekends. I shall hereby stop wasting my time on the computer. Bad. :(

Here's a quiz from facebook:
Do you have a list of friends from A-Z? State down what you like and dislike about them.
Here we go!

A: Amanda Tan
Like: Very fun to philosophise with, and nice! Do loadsa stuff with me tgt :D I still rmb the sprite ice skit we did with gwen, LOL! Sprite ice sprite ice is the best or smth -.- Love you to bits!
Dislike: We all have no time so we can't go on a date :(

B: Benjamin Sim
Like: Happy guy, a great friend, great joke teller! :D Very optimistic.
Dislike: -

C: Chingying
Like: Bubbly girl, always filled with laughter :D
Dislike: -

D: Daphne
Like: Cute, makes me laugh :D And really nice! Rmb that time you cheered fel on when she was
running 2.4, haha.
Dislike: -

E: Esther
Like: A nice person to talk to, esp during level camps :D Funny blog posts! They really make me
laugh out loud man.
Dislike: -

F: Felicia Poh + Fangting
Like: Both are nice! Fel is super funny, and fangting is fashion-crazy :D
Dislike: -

G: Gwen Cheah
Like: Home econs craziness!
Dislike: Her voldie addiction! Just kidding hahah.

H: Huiyi
Like: Great superb voiceee :D Love singing with you haha.
Dislike: -

I: I don't know who leh. hahaha.
Like:
Dislike:

J: Jiajia
Like: Great fellow shopper! And movie-watcher :D And job-applier :D And bus-taker. Okay you
geddit :D CCA mate for 5 years!
Dislike: -

K: Karmen
Like: Hyper woman who can high on air :D Keeps our class morale up! Yay.
Dislike: -

L: Leong! (Xiuhan, better known as Ahleong)
Like: Super funny. And great friend too, very xi xin (knitted a pouch for me:D) Talented in writing stories due to her constant daydreaming -.-
Dislike: Cannot study with her cos will end up crapping. HAHA. Rmb the hand drawings? And
always grabs food from me. :(

M: Michelle Ouyang
Like: Superb friend :DDDDDDDD Awesome zoo-goer, hahaha.
Dislike: She keeps freezing me with cold jokes! :(

N: Nicole Tannnnnn Balloooooon!
Like: Outgoing and friendly! Great shopper (but more like we watch her buy lol)!
Dislike: Her flamingo jacket! Okay kidding -.-

O: Olivia
Like: Friendly! I rmb deco-ing campaigning cups with her! And she has this aura that makes ppl
happy.
Dislike: Must take care of yourself and don't be so accident-prone lol!

P: Police
Like: Serve our country and make our homes safer.
Dislike: Too fierce. I accidentally call you mah, don't have to slam the phone down right? :(

Q:
Like:
Dislike:

R: Rachel Lian
Like: Her tricks and jokes and whatnot. :D Esp the TFFT! :D
Dislike: -

S: Samuel Chang
Like: Funniest seating partner ever. And always does hilarious actions.
Dislike: Too lame sometimes.

T: Tzuhsiang
Like: Her arty stuffs esp the card she made me in sec 2 HAHAH i still rmb :D And cards, vday
hearts etc. CCA mate :D She can play the piano really well!
Dislike: Sleep earlier horrr!

U:
Like:
Dislike:

V: Vanessa Lim
Like: Awesome friend :D Best confidante ever! Very caring, I rmb complaining to you on the
phone when I was sad. Thanks for being there! And love the cherry necklace you gave! And
loadsa more stuff like cam-whoring in class.
Dislike: -

W: Wenyi
Like: Nice studying mate! LOL.
Dislike: Always grabs food from me. :(

X: Xiuli
Like: Great friend, her house is really fun I WANNA PLAY BOARD GAMES NEXT TIME IF I
HAVE CHANCE TO GO (: Has a really nice mum HAHA.
Dislike: Math so good for what! haha.

Y: Yihsin
Like: All the fun times we had! Esp P5/6, LOL! Must go out more often :D
Dislike: -

Z: Zhoutao + Zhiyi
Like: (ZT) Awesome friend :D Great fellow photographer! Super talented, she's like a legend man! :D Languages, sciences, arts etc. (ZY) Very caring! Great bus-taker, study mate!
Dislike: (ZT) Er, too sarcastic? LOL jkjk.

If I didn't mention you don't worry, you're still in my heart :D Love you guys :D

wenyi: HAHA, I realised can use alpha-lock. Omg, I sound like a nerd talking like that. :D