last youth service at nexus ytd. can't bear to leave. this place was when i first knew Christ, sitting in one of the green chairs on the left near the stage. then, one year later, in one of the green chairs on the right, i rcved Christ and the Holy Spirit. that was when i first experienced His mercy & grace :')

since then, i've been looking fwd to sats when i can praise & worship God! it's an amazing feeling to be able to converse w God and listen to His advice and thank Him tgt with a whole big group of ppl, compared to just praying at home/work. most memorable session was praise&worship during metamorphosis, when we just poured out all our troubles, and came tgt to pray for consec 3 hours. two is better than one in prayer. "I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them." - Matthew 18:19-20

also, the atmosphere's so amped up during youth service. and the sermons, they're just so applicable and i'm able to relate to them so well. awesome pastors who preach from the Word yet make it relevant to our daily lives. awesome online sermon resources for when we miss out services. i feel just so privileged to be in this church and serving w a group of awesome lg mates. it's a blessing i won't take for granted. :)

guess i still feel like a kid. i know i'm gonna have to get used to the more serious atmosphere in uni service. :( e.g. no jumping and fewer/softer amens? but i have to really be more mature and stop seeing myself as a kid. in the meantime, recalled what yangs told me about God caring for His children who have innocence. guess i have to strike a balance btn maturing and still maintaining a child-like worldview, cos it's in a child's eyes that more things are discovered and renewed. stop being so jaded, there're things to be thankful for every day :)

what xiangyu said ytd really jolted me. don't insult God by settling for smth small. God did not create you and plant His word in you and give you the Great Commission just so you can be satisfied with your current situation. He wants you to get out of your comfort zone, break barriers, dream big, and do radical things. (Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. - Matthew 28:19-20) make disciples, by contributing/serving through smth you are good in, no matter how small you think it is. when you're belittling yourself, you're belittling your Father's power for He gave you talents and much more.

really thankful for Jol who prayed for me. she really inspired me to improve my prayer life. take care girl!! thank God for our bros&sis for winning the car challenge and donating all proceeds to the CBF :D the number of chairs will be doubled!

somehow there doesn't seem to be enough time/energy to get to know each and every brother and sister. :( esp now w work. argh. i wna do serious fellowshipping soon. and serving w them. also, i wna catch up w my friends too.

goal for my role in lg:
to serve in at least one comm service, helping to plan bef hand
improve my prayer and be more spirit-led
plan my time such that i can spend more time w lg, not compromising family time (though i'm a srsly disorganised person boo)
flea mkt shopping w them! hahaha.

mission trip!!

and little things which were incomprehensible just finally all make sense now. :D all the missing pieces finally gathered into a complete picture.
from now on i'll be posting sermon/lg teaching points, since my handwriting's getting real bad and sermon notebook's screwed up.

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