you always think you're right. why do u think i spent so much hard work on that? it's all not gonna pay off anyway. so why should i care in the first place?

don't blame me for being lazy. i'm not. i'm just afraid all the work would go down the drain. i'm just afraid of history repeating itself.

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someday i'm just gonna break down. not that i haven't done it before.

i want to end all this, but there's nothing worth dying over. funny though, there's nothing worth living for too. forcing redundant stuff that isn't even gonna help in my future into my small cramped head, talking to people in my unpredictable mask, listening to them with a cold heart, writing idiotic things that i myself don't even understand on stacks of sheets of papers.

to put it simply, school's totally useless. so much for getting that A level cert.