just one post caused so much trouble. blogging can really kill.

i'm sorry. i shall explain it even though i said i didn't wanna explain any further.

i was just so lost when i didn't know who i should join. i didn't know both well, so maybe i sounded a bit helpless or despo. of course, since you were my friend, i would've turned to you. cos i trusted you. i knew we would work well tgt, but what about the others i did not know. i just wanted to give it a try, that's all. i didn't even know they didn't want me. maybe i should've been more sensitive to others' feelings, but i just felt so lost at that time. i was totally helpless.

don't worry, i'll heed your advice and won't just stick to you. i'm not jealous of anyone.

hope the matter's cleared. it really cost me quite a few day's appetite and tears.