stop treating me like an object which you can keep whenever you feel like it and throw away when you don't want it. I'M NOT ANYTHING WHICH CAN BE CONTROLLED BY YOU. GET THIS CLEAR.
i was already feeling so fcked up. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHICH GRP I BELONGED TO. NO ONE SAID ANYTHING WHEN I JOINED EITHER GROUP. I KNEW I DIDN'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE WHEREVER I WENT ANYWAY. no one cared. so did you or did you not want me? i could see that you didn't. so i moved to the other group. then i ended up offending a lot of people and being shouted at. anyway this whole fxcking thing is so complicated that i don't wanna mention it anymore.
STOP IT. STOP TREATING ME LIKE ANYTHING WHICH YOU CAN JUST EASILY DUMP WHEN YOU DON'T NEED ME. IF YOU DON'T WANT ME, JUST SAY IT SO I CAN JOIN THE OTHER GROUP WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT. I KNOW ALOT OF PPL HATE ME SO THEY DON'T WANT ME IN THEIR GROUP. WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST SAY THAT? MAKE LIFE EASIER FOR ALL OF US. DON'T JUST SAY "I DUNNO, ASK BLAH." WHEN YOU OBVIOUSLY KNOW THE ANSWER. did you know how terrible i felt when i didn't even know where to go to and ended up being shouted at?
freak man. even if i tried blending in, i just couldn't. what the hell. I'M REALLY ANGRY NOW. anyway, this was only the start of the day. the rest of the day was bad enough. i had terrible moodswings and started crying in between lessons. couldn't concentrate. i think i offended a lot of ppl too.let me just list out the things which went wrong.
- missed first bus, waited freaking long for the second one
- forgot to give mc to jt
- LA sucked
- recess sucked
- went photocopy shop to collect chem notes, not enough $$
- ran there for nth (sorry ft!)
- maths sucked, couldn't concentrate
etc etc.
i just don't know what's wrong with me.
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ah, forgive me for being so moody. everything's okay now. just some stupid rants i had to let out.
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