i'm feeling so terrible now that i can't talk. i just can't find the right words to put.

i'm so useless lah, no one trusts me. here i am typing all this out, but what diff will it be? it'll just be the same inside. it feels like falling into a deep pit, and the world seems to be ripping me. it's just so bad.

now i'm so hungry yet i don't wanna eat. i really don't wanna do anything now, but i have to do something. it's getting on my nerves. cca tmr and sat.

it's so painful inside. i just can't put it.

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well, thanks zt and th for cheering me up. as quoted from zt: "just accept it for what it is cos u cant change it. just learn to take things for what they are and get over it. since u hate it and all and can do nth bout it, why not just accept it?"

thanks a lot.

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[edit]
chopped wood during guides. then i went to tie gadgets cos too many ppl. i could have gone to deco, and slacked my afternoon. but i stupid mah, didn't go. went back to find sec 4s then chop wood. ended up with lots of cuts and splinters and chouing marks on my hands&fingers.

at home i had a effing depression again. i was crying for no apparent reason. the feeling of trying so hard, giving everything your best and in the end, not being appreciated at all, man it's indescribable.