i've finally come to my senses. this world is nothing but superficial. lies, fake smiles, fake encouragements.

been having post-atc depression. it's not like i haven't tried. i did. you didn't. on the last day i totally broke down. not because everyone else did, but because i realised my true colours. i realised why everyone hated me, despised me.

humans are really very weird things. as quoted from a post in dhscoy blog, "We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are." how totally true. and unfortunate. "we mustn't judge a book by its cover and don't label others." who, tell me who, have truly done that?

i feel sick just at the thought of it. i need someone to lend me an ear, or a shoulder to lean on. but there's no one. at all.

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i've been having a burning desire to blog about atc. but once i started typing, i realised all that would just lead to nothing but more depression. i don't even feel like updating it in my secretary book. like i said, this world is so superficial. everything we do is for others. not ourselves.

replies!

gina: lol i thought u dao me so i never talk to you ): i thought u don't like me ler!
zhiyi: wakao. hehe nice smiles!
jocelyn: p1 rocks more can. actually we stone :D
hwee2: HELLO HWEEEEEE!
shadow: thanks! haha yes i will (:
leongying: yeah, miss you :D hope we can have outings again (: will relink ya, and happy belated!
yunjing: thanks, i will :D
kelly: lol!
th: omg! i'll miss you like siao leh! when you return? haha and i'll spam u with emails :D