everything's almost over. just one more paper to go.

nope, not the usual 'yay' that you would have expected. i feel so rotten, someone please cheer me up.

FLUNKED MATHS. AND HIST. AND LIT. AND SCI.
I FLUNKED NEARLY EVERYTHING. i just feel like dying.

why is it that when i was beginning to feel like working hard, all these obstacles just stack up in front of me? why is it that all the mugging doesn't pay off? i really did try to put in my best.

except maths maybe. and i really regret it. i dunno how to explain to my maths tuition teacher. i'm gonna let my parents down. but i feel so numb now. i dont even feel the pain of flunking maths anymore.

guess i've gotten used to it. so much for optimism.

can't believe i actually worked so hard, memorising all the events during the jap occupation for hist, all the character traits of characters for lit, application and explanation for science. everything just doesn't pay off. and i actually don't understand what's all the knowledge for.

gonna pia hard next year. i mean it.
maybe next year will be better. hope so.